Ah, anxiety. My best and most personal friend. Why? Why is all I have to say. Why does it always come back? Can't it find somebody else to bother? I always ask myself how this all started. My entire life up until now has been perfect, well not perfect but pretty close to it! I have such a constant fear that I am going to lose somebody very close to ( Read more... )

Okay, this blog is about my personal feelings about the recent death of Michael Joseph Jackson. I must say that it was quite heartbreaking to hear the tragic death of such an amazing talent. I grew up listening to Michael Jackson when I was a little girl. His death almost felt surreal, like it was a dream. Alas it's not. It's really horrible that ( Read more... )

So here I am, bored at work with really nothing to talk about. Hm, well I am a little under the weather with a cold and some sort of stomach virus. I've had it for about 2 weeks and I'm hoping it's not because of my diet or anything. Speaking of my diet, I have been on it for about a month! Can you believe it?! Me?! ON a diet?! Wow ( lol )  So, on ( Read more... )

Hm, where should I start? I've seem to be back and forth with this anxiety crap. I feel as if I can't live my life to its full potential like all other young adults do. I very rarely like going out with people, or even being in a public place. I wish that I could trade places with somebody just for one day so I can be worry-free. Ugh! Too much ( Read more... )

So,Today I decided I wanted to be lazy. I got home from work, plopped my ass on the couch, and grabbed my Mum's lab top. For about 3 hours, I watched videos on songs that were played backwards. Some of them were a bit far fetched, but such songs at Revolution NO. 9 by The Beatles and Stairway to Heavan by Led Zeppelin were unbelievably creepy. The ( Read more... )

And when we get home, I know we won't be home at all
This place we live, it is not where we belong
And I miss who we were in the town that we could call our own
Going back to get away after everything has changed

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
( ( Read more... )

So I was really bored at work and decided I wanted to write a poem. Well, needless to say it sucked. Haha. Anyway, I have been kinda upset and kinda not (if that makes any sense) My heart and my brain are in a battle. I like this boy very much, but as you can see I've been in many dead end relationships. I really wish that I wouldn't attach myself ( Read more... )

It's 11:00 pm and I CANNOT sleep! My brain just keeps thinking of random things. Ugh! I hate when this happens. I gotta wake up at 6:40 am for work and I can't even fucking sleep.

HELP!

I was just pondering. Hmm, well let's see. I'm 19 and why am I worrying and caring so much about ONE BOY when I have my whole life ahead of me?! Like what the fuck was I thinking. Sometimes I need a reality check and I finally think I got one. I obviously didn't love my ex as much as I thought considering I'm over him and its been almost 2 weeks. ( Read more... )

Oh, I hate typing these pitiful blogs but what the hell. What else do I have to do now? So anyway, I'm just going to start out by saying I have no regrets nor any revenge.  My relationship for the past couple of months has ended due to me being stupid. Like I said, I have no regrets (believe it or not) I don't know if I do stupid things because I' ( Read more... )