Turns out the rant was necesarry. God damnit! People and their damned mixed signals. Now i have to pull my shit together and act like i don't care that we're just friends.

And I don't do the mistress thing. Either I'm your only chick, or I'm not your chick. That's just how it is.

so maybe my rant was unnecessary. I can't tell though. my car is still in Baltimore ( i got more drunk than i expected to.) he drove me home, picked me up this morning, is taking me to lunch, and then is picking me up after work.

damn it, i'm so confused.

Didn't want to get up this morning and i should have just stayed in bed today. Got up and was groggy from last nights allergy medicine. Didn't have time to pack lunch. Got to work late. Didn't feel like taking any calls, so of course everyone decides to call. My co-worker didn't come in so i don't even have a choice about taking calls. Angry ( Read more... )

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The gala thing i had to play this weekend was kinda cool. The cellist from the piano trio was hot. In the fake gambling after the concert i won lots of money, then purposely lost it all. Too bad it wasn't real. I would have been $800 richer, after starting with $50. (Truth to that is that i would never actually waste real money gambling as i ( Read more... )

Monday night was great. There were lots of peoples that i like to dance with there, so i only danced with a few people more than once. Amy was there too. Yay. She's fun. She has her unbacelorette party next week too. That will be great fun as well. I've been so busy this month. Between horse shows, band shows, rehearsals, concerts, dancing, RenFest ( Read more... )

My roomie and i were discussing our schedules this morning and how neither of us has had time to go food shopping or do laundry. It's a damn good thing i have so many clothes. Food on the other hand. I have things i can eat, but that doesn't mean that i want to eat them. Example. I had Ramen for lunch both Fri. and Mon. Today i was out of ( Read more... )

This weekend was great. Friday nights show went well. Friday nights party was much fun. Didn't have to sleep on a futon or the floor Fri., got a real bed instead (most excellent ( Read more... )

So yesterday ended up being a lot of fun. Not going to elaborate too much. We won the game. I saw a friend of mine that i haven't seen in a while, who apparently works at the stadium and got us free food. Free food is always good. During the game this guy in front of us was wearing a shirt for a shooting range that does clay pigeons and stuff ( Read more... )

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