I guess I got bored, because I always forget to post in Livejournal. Especially during times I don't want to remember. I don't like putting irrational, angry thoughts into a somewhat permanent form, because I would prefer to think they will just go away. I'm on anti-depressants now and my life feels better. I usually write in these when I want ( Read more... )

Sometimes you find yourself home on a Friday night with a belly full of lobster, all dressed up, and watching SET IT OFF.

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Today I applied for re-admittance to Kendall. I'm going to take at least 1 class a semester until I finish. I don't have anymore excuses, and I feel alive again. The last time I felt like I had something to look forward to was when I started dating Allan. He's wonderful, but it's not enough. I hope this is what I've been looking for, and I think ( Read more... )

Allan had training in Columbus, OH, so i have taken time off work, and tagged along so that I can enjoy the hotel room, and get some homework done. We have a king-sized bed, and I brought a vcr/dvd player and bought a season of Roseanne. We also have a fridge and microwave. Allan gets out early and then we go to dinner, and tonight I think we're ( Read more... )

I haven't written in 2 seasons. I feel really alone in Grand Rapids. I was friends with Allan's friends and since, we've had a huge falling out. Allan's the best thing I got going hands down. I kind of feel like i'm riding the stationary bike of life, but at least i would be wearing the exact same outfit Olivia Newton John wears in the Physical ( Read more... )

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Feeling kind of lame, alone with a cold on a Saturday night. Got wasted at Mulligan's last night and drunk-dialed a bunch of people, but didn't say anything I wouldn't normally say sober. I live my life like I'm intoxicated half of the time anyway, so there isn't much of a difference. I did however spend a good deal of the day working on the ( Read more... )

I'm doing really well. Probably a little too well, which means I'm likely just in a manic episode. I'm starting to come down though. I'm sleeping again. I've been going out a lot lately, and I need to watch my money a lot better. I don't have a ton to last me until the next paycheck. My job has restructured the commission policy so that we do ( Read more... )

I had a really good week in Detroit. I felt really lonely, upon my return though. I'm starting to get a group of friends back, but I was out for so long... it's really hard. That's the single life for you though, you get these bouts, but things do improve. I'm going to stay in GR for a while though, so there is more Nicole to go around. I mean, ( Read more... )

I have new crazy hair. I'm not sure if GR is ready for it, but oh well. Here it comes!

Buffy Musical Tonight!!!! Brett and I are going to celebrate our nerdiness.