I can't explain how much judgement gets on my nerves. I'm so sick and tired of people assuming one thing or another. I'm tired of people talking about me behind my back. It's so hilarious that these very people who talk about others behind their backs get talked about by the same people they confide in ( Read more... )

In my search for truth and understanding I've been through at least five religions and countless sects and denominations. You know what I've found? Absolutely nothing! After my stint as an atheist I realized that there was something out there after all. I then moved on to agnosticism and then ever farther to what I am now. I don't think there's a ( Read more... )

at this point in life, I feel like I'm searching for something. What is it? I have no freaking clue!!! Love? Creepy thought... I'm starting to feel so shallow, hollow, and fake. Who am I? What am I? I used to be so happy, so free... Not anymore! I feel bound by labels and expectations. I feel like I've been put in one certain category and must stay ( Read more... )

so life is a horrible joke...

...I just got the punch line :(

Last year I struggled with money and looked for the perfect job, instead I found the perfect friend. Lucy made life easier, and better. I miss sludge...that's what we jokingly called her coffee. It was guaranteed to wake you up and clog your arteries. I miss us sitting our asses around all day for no reason at all, smoking cigarettes and laughing ( Read more... )

why is it that anything that can go wrong, will go wrong and ALL AT ONCE!!!?

I think I have finally discovered the essence of the human spirit. But in this discovery, I've also found a question. The essenece, in case your wandering, is the complete and utter dependence on pieces of paper. This inky carbon infested nuisance has taken many lives, wrecked many marriages, caused starvation, claimed many insanity cases, and has ( Read more... )

I have had the most amazing weekend. Friday Lance and I went riding around looking for a house. Not three places into the search, we found the perfect place. Right amount of bedrooms, right amount of bathrooms, right amount of money, and so on so forth. Goofed around this weekend, went to work. Had plans with Joe Sunday. He texted me to say that we ( Read more... )

so I just watched the Brokeback Mountain trailer and I had a few thoughts. How awesome is it that what started as a book and independent film is going to be on the silver screen? I'm beside myself with happiness that this story of two men falling in love is being treated like any other big time movie. There are no weird ratings or special ( Read more... )

Here I sit, 4:21 AM on Wednesday morning wondering why the hell I haven't been to sleep yet. I was really sleepy all day at school and now that I'm in a possible sleep situation...NOTHING! I've never been this busy in my entire life. I get to school at 9 AM and leave at 10 PM. I work on the only days that I have off from school, and I wonder why I' ( Read more... )