I am a fucking moron.

Had I even two brain cells to rub together for warmth, I would not have done what I just did. But I did. Because I'm retarded.

Here's hoping I didn't fuck things up.

At the end of the day, someone should ask me if I've emailed the tattoo guy about my tattoo for Del's thing.

And if I say no? They should beat me repetatively until I do.

Sometimes I hate this horrible overawareness that I seem to have of certain situations. The way that I can have these multiple, often overlapping, sometime contradictory, levels of want and need ( Read more... )

I think that it would be astounding if, even briefly, things in my life were able to come in to focus and have a clear-cut, visible outline of what they are and might have the potential to become. But in the same breath, I am awed by, and perhaps even thankful for, the knowledge that this will never be the case ( Read more... )

For those playing the home game:
"I did finally get a hold of someone at Bob's company on Monday. The man told me that Bob was fine, hadn't been injured or anything like that, and that where he was there were several forms of communication available, so that it was obviously a personal choice so they therefore couldn't tell me anything else or help ( Read more... )

I guess now, all is lost.

I am so cold.

I am so hurt.

I am so fucking alone. Again. And forever.

It has been a very bad day at work.

I've known for a while now that I didn't like my new immediate boss, but I could never quite put my finger on what it was that bothered me so much. I think I figured it out today though. It's that she hunts for errors. I understand that any kind of manager is supposed to make sure that people are doing what they ( Read more... )

What a craptastic holiday, especially when you're hurting. And it's 90% commercialism and corny meaningless bull shit even when you're not. So really, what a mostly crappy holiday ( Read more... )

ShttrdAngel (9:03:49 PM): holt fucking shit
ShttrdAngel (9:03:55 PM): http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-8094143319539113148&q=dancing+robot
SNIFIT 9 (9:04:09 PM): omfg
ShttrdAngel (9:04:18 PM): how fabulously kewl is that?
SNIFIT 9 (9:04:56 PM): Wow.
ShttrdAngel (9:05:14 PM): I know, right?
SNIFIT 9 (9:05:17 PM): Had that car blown something ( Read more... )

I'm so homesick. So stark ravingly mad to feel at home. Belly aches and longing. Complete lack of warmth. I want to go home ( Read more... )