Since i wrote a couple of hours this morning, i feel so lost within myself. i finally have been able to shut the tears off, but i think that is due to there not being any more inside that need to come out. i am just exhausted, beyond belief. But, i don't want to go to sleep. i'm afraid of what i might dream of. i can't seem to get the energy up to ( Read more... )

When i first woke up this morning, it was because baby William was letting me know that i needed to make more room for him by going to the bathroom. Then, i realized that i can't breathe. i've noticed the last couple of weeks that i am extremely stuffy when i wake up in the morning. i know that it's preggy related, and hopefully Master will find ( Read more... )

Indigestion is a killer in the middle of the night lately. It's getting more clear that baby William is growing like a weed inside of me, and pushing all of my insides into a tiny, squishy pile in the middle of me. It's so weird to feel arms, legs, butt, head, and any other body part/s try to push into my ribs and lungs when i least expect it. ( Read more... )

i believe i am still trying to decompress after the last few weeks of high-paced stress that never seemed to go away. i believe Master is attempting to do the same thing, because He made several comments in the last couple of days that He doesn't feel like Himself. It just may be that there isn't any stress there at all. Who knows ( Read more... )

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But... if it wasn't for these terrible dreams i keep having, i would be ( Read more... )

As Master has written in His journal, nothing but good news came from the office visit yesterday that felt like lasted for a century or more. In a brief summary (since my head is still trying to decompress from the last couple of weeks worth of stress ( Read more... )

i'm not sure exactly how much sleep i was able to get last night. Master had me resort to taking something for sleep, and that didn't seem to do the exact trick He was looking for. i'm feeling rather drugged this morning, as if i took something for my anxiety. i know i didn't, but that's the feeling i have this morning. i believe Master is sound ( Read more... )

i have been up for about 30 minutes now, and don't think i have accomplished much at all except to put some comfy clothes on, and to let the dogs outside. Oh, i'm working on my water already, and just finished munching on that 'yummy' chewie thing i'm supposed to do each morning when i wake up ( Read more... )

Ok, i thought i was doing good today, until a couple of things have popped up within the last hour ( Read more... )