In the past couple of days I've realized that things aren't going to get better on their own. In fact they're going to get worse unless I dig my feet into the ground and open my eyes. Its looking like we're losing eachother ( Read more... )

It feels really nice to be home after a week and a half of being a crisis management mercenary. I'll admit I'm in pain too from everything, but it hurts more when others hurt. when a little girl cries over a cemetary stone..like a cold knife in my stomach. my uncle : Read more... )

I don't quite have the patience to be upset or to show emotion anymore. and suddenly that makes me miserable. I believe the absence of happiness isn't always the presence of misery. I've been unbelievably pensive. Random quotes pop into my head that I did not react to properly here are a few ( Read more... )

Its crazy how one sentence can change everything. Lost a decent friend. Started some kind of "friends against Paul" group at work. so what happened? I dont really know. I guess at some point in time I said something about nyka (chad's girlfriend) and like usual she probably took it the wrong way and now i'm sort of banned from seeing chad. (well ( Read more... )

Once upon a time there was a family ( Read more... )

So I just did my taxes, I should get a net of 350 somethin dollars back. which kind of sucks considering they took 1,600 dollars or so from me. eh, it'll help with the bills i suppose. i get so anxious before i have to go to work. like i always think i'm going to be late. i look at the clock, its 12:21 and i have to be there at 1. i still have to ( Read more... )

Today at work I asked so many people; practically anyone I could find if they've heard anything about this job I'm going for. since I was SUPPOSED to hear about it Monday and here it is Wednesday...and still nothing. I swear if I waited this long JUST to find out I DIDN'T get it I'm going to be so damn pissed. and then scared. Because I don't know ( Read more... )

Today was going to be a glorious day to myself. I already redecorated my living room and kitchen, i just wanted to work on the guest bedrooms today...and afterwards rejoice in a ton of futurama episodes. that won't happen. this morning i awoke at 7am to my answering machine bellowing out "hi pauul this is joe from wegmans...come in and give us your ( Read more... )

To recap ( Read more... )

whew, haven't done this in a while. nothing really special been going on. semester is moving okay. I hang out with a new crowd now. a crowd that would welcome you as fast as they'd turn their backs on you ( Read more... )