i'm tired of all of the analogies, of all of the metaphors, of all of the attempts to verbalize what's swimming through my head ( Read more... )

i've followed the careers of numerous athletes over the years, taken a personal investment during big games or fights, become jubilant in the event of victory, desolate in defeat. i started with dennis rodman (and, as with just about everybody else in the world, michael jordan), the 1995-1996 chicago bulls, roy jones jr., pete sampras, brett favre ( Read more... )

gameplans are the cornerstone of any successful fight. you have to watch tape, study strengths and weaknesses, figure out how best to approach your opponent. you take a striker to the ground and work submissions; you keep jiu-jitsu guys and wrestlers standing as long as possible, and if they do manage to take you down you make it hell for them ( Read more... )

accepting the way i feel about her has led to greater peace of mind for me. and in the wake of that at times i'll feel bursts of resolve, surges of resilience, flashes of my being unstoppable.

times like tonight.

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apart from my previous post, the best way to describe how compelled my heart feels to carry on is to refer you to certain mixed martial ( Read more... )

this whole time i've been working with the mindset that judas and double h are both better than me, which has prompted all of these doubts and insecurities to plague me and keep me up at night. i've realized that it's a defeatist way of looking at things, and that if i keep it up i'm only shooting myself in the foot... repeatedly ( Read more... )

difficult times, trying times, times that tested my mettle and my measure as a man. but times i can now look back on fondly, with pride, knowing i pulled something off that not very many have ( Read more... )

i want the fight.

i haven't signed the contract yet, though. a lot can happen between now and october, and i don't want to bite off more than i can chew, talk a good game and not be able to back it up, have to back out at the last minute for one reason or another and look like an ass for having verbally committed earlier.

but even though i haven't ( Read more... )

want

Main Entry: want
Function: verb
Etymology: Middle English, from Old Norse vanta; akin to Old English wan deficient
Date: 13th century

intransitive verb: to be needy or destitute
2 : to have or feel need
3 : to be necessary or need
4 : to desire to come, go, or be
5 : to wish or demand the presence of
6 : to hunt or seek in order to apprehend

i want to ( Read more... )

throughout my 27 years, i've done a lot of things i'm not proud of. i've made my share of mistakes, and if history could repeat itself i have all sorts of things i'd love to be able to rewrite. but whenever my sister asks me what's the worst thing i've ever done is, none of those things tend to come to mind ( Read more... )

she's one of the best, pound for pound. she's got her share of issues to deal with, her share of critics and detractors, but she's still one of the best... all-world caliber ( Read more... )