im drinking alone again tonight. not sure if i chose to or whats going on. its okay to be apart from every thing. half the time nobody notices you're missing anyways. sometimes drinking nearly ruins my life and i wonder about going sober. i know its a result of a larger problem involving depression, but let me have my pride. i dont want to go to a ( Read more... )

remember when we madeout? that was so weird ( Read more... )

my life is going nowhere right now

fuck i fucking hated new years. last year i loved it i was with my closest friends, it was perfect. this year it just made me feel like a pile of human shit, i care about like 5 people in the whole world and i try to be good to them and make them happy but i still fail in that department. to everyone else i'm a drunk asshole that they will never ( Read more... )

in alot of ways this was the worst year of my life so far ( Read more... )

so i dont care about writing anything detailed in this thing anymore. im just logging what happened this summer cause i had a long summer and i havent been home at all ( Read more... )

the coke gets better the farther away you get from mexico or even the equator if you wanna get down to it. the coke is handled very well by a single mexican named Jarriba. he handles the coke in all aspects; production, packing, handling, and ultimately delievering. he wraps the coke in a thin sheet of manilla. the manilla adds a scent to the coke ( Read more... )

ok so here it is. luckily drew brought his laptop on tour and we have pretty much been able to check the internet regularly. nobody is going to read this anyway, so i am taking the time to document these first few days for my own self! i want to look back and be able to remember more of the details. on a tour where you are constantly drinking and ( Read more... )

man i feel like a shit in a shitter ( Read more... )

the fucker
i want to be buried in my harley davidson racing jacket