i nearly lost my mind last night. i think it was because after practice we all talked about the bands we played with in highschool and the shows and the different people we hung out with. it made me feel old. it put things in perspective, and i guess i realized i have had a pretty eventful life so far, and that i'm pretty young anyways and i will ( Read more... )

i have given up hope for 2006. this year is a bunch of shit, or at least this part. i havent found happiness since i've been back from tour. 1/2 unpredictable whirlwind and chaos and fun, and 1/2 misery, abject failure, and self-loathing ( Read more... )

oh man i've said it before, this is the shittiest age. especially when you don't play your cards right, and you have wasted huge amounts of time with nothing to show for it ( Read more... )

stoked on my music life
total abuse tape rules.
i will post details when it is for sale and you can buy one.
these are pro tapes dude, not some shitty lil demo.
trust me you'll love it.

i want to work at the donut shop by my house and play in punk bands forever.
i'm not getting any younger.

i think i might be rotting from inside out

so i think i am addicted to cutting class. its only like month 2 of school and i have skipped 4 or 5 classes. i guess that's not as bad as i used to be. i skipped 68 class periods in 10th grade. i even have LESS assignments in college than i did in highschool, so i think i'm on top of everything. they dont take roll anyway. i just miss stupid notes ( Read more... )

i am twenty fucking years old and every day still feels like the first day of school.
nothing i do ever works out.
big wow.

update on life: my girl problems blah blah blah school blah blah blah money blah blah blah drinking problem blah blah blah

i can't drink like this anymore. it's not worth it. i am fucking myself over bad. i don't know if i should quit, seek help, die, or just moderate. it seems to me that it's all or nothing. i can be completely sober, or just fucking wasted. the only time in between, is when i'm buying beer and transporting it somewhere. drinking has never done ( Read more... )

the rub-off is instant. i smell like punk rock girls. i smell like 15 year old girls. i smell like every girl who does not want to be treated right. i must be doing something wrong. i am stepping on valuable fingers/toes. everything is the opposite of quiet. ringers and shit throw me for a loop. tonight i saw something i hadn't seen in a long time ( Read more... )