its the big day today. time to blow some shit up.

but I also have a hell of a lot to do. food, drinks, cash, planning, cleaning....... whew

I'm bored.

I'm in the mood to just chill and watch movies, but there isn't anything on.

it's been one of those days...

I fuckin'..... I've been thinking today, because I simply had nothing else to do. We all know how I start picking myself ap.... my dog won't stop farting. We all know how I start picking myself apart when I have nothing to do.

I think about things I've done wrong, why I did them, how things should have gone... I think ( Read more... )

i

am

going

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lutel

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fucki ( Read more... )

i'm home. i'm tired.

but i want to go out.

argh.

today was insane ( Read more... )

Seeing Katie today made me sad. i don't want her to leave. i haven't been without her in so long it feels like. "'m just scared that we will lose touch ( Read more... )

things change tomorrow at 6:00 a.m.

Sometimes, I think I grew up too fast ( Read more... )

I'm not happy, or sad.

Conflicted is the word.

And I hate having no control over myself sometimes. I'm just a prick. And I can't turn it off. I like the girls I shouldn't, and I can't turn it off.

Ugh.