Some days I feel so alone, as though I am the only human in my world. My little dogs keep me company. What is wrong with me that no one wants my company except my dogs? Is bipolar disorder such a horrible disease that everyone is afraid to be tainted by being around it? I feel isolated. My psyc. is moving away. I must find a new one. The ( Read more... )

I keep looking at the photos of Starfire. Thank you, thank you, thank you, LaRoo, for sending them! They mean the world to me. I love the one of Grandpa on the black horse. It gives me a shiver to know that Grandpa was 44 in that photo--a year younger than I am now. And I was 22. Your age. I love the pictures! Love them!!! Love you!

...that the world can pay millions of dollars to professional athletes--especially football players--to run around, act like cavemen in tights, and play with a ball and each other's butts. Yet we can't feed the starving children of the world? Or the adults either, for that matter. We can't even pay teachers a decent salary to educate the next ( Read more... )

There once was a poodle named Chama ( Read more... )

Arggh! Haven't slept in almost a week. Just catnaps here and there. Freakin' neighbors had their stero blasting until 5 AM!!!!! Can't call sheriff, as we are the only neighbor, so they'd know who did it and we've already had a feud last year the escalated to near violence. Just want enough money to buy 500-1,000 acres so I can put my house in ( Read more... )

Spent forever and a day going through the 114 e-mails I had!!! (All writer stuff, pretty much.) Too sleepy now to write anything worthwhile in the journal. Will have to wait til later.

Little Apple ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a bad day. Sometimes, the darkness of depression overwhelms me, no matter how hard I fight it. It is often triggered by outside things, and internal things. Yesterday was such a day. I was missing Loretta sooooo badly. Thinking of how quickly she had grown. It was her birthday. A special birthday, because it fell on a Sunday-- ( Read more... )

Hi Loretta ( Read more... )