ok so that was the hardest thing i had to do. She begged me not to do it , she was like don't do this chris , don't let this end this way. I was like i'm sorry but you have to move on .. we stayed on the phone for hours , talking about our realtionship . final i had to let her go , i mean she messed up, and i can't be around that. God this hurts to ( Read more... )

fuck her , she did shit to me so i'm being a bitch to her . Hell people need me , and i'm going to help people. Fuck her , I wanted her with me , but i don't need her. I fucking hate that bitch. How dare she brings drugs into my house. I'm meant to be alone , I,'m just going back to the old way , use them and get them the hell out of my life. fuck ( Read more... )

why ? why does it hurt this much. I want this pain to go away. anything is better than this. I really need some one to talk to but i know this is only is access to two people and i really don't want to talk to one , because I know she has enough promblems to deal with. and the other doesn't have my phone number. fuck. here i go crying again.

ok last night was the bomb , we started off kissing and then it lead to rubbing each other , then came the hand cuffs , it was something else , but my wrist kind hurts from them. lol but it was way worth it. of course i was a tease a little bit like i am always , but she didn't mind and friday , I pla n to make her scream in front of her friends at ( Read more... )

ok so on friday i had to work and i felt bad for missing the party that she set up. so I called her and told her that I wasn't coming , and i said i love you , and i really felt it , so yea I worked my ass off 14 or 15 hour shift and I was dog tired and as soon as i got home i stipped and went my ass to bed. then I hear chris , it was my girlfriend ( Read more... )

ok so you know i have a gf and everthing is going fine , great even , but i find myself looking at other girls . and i really like this one thats in my speech class she's the oppsite of me and likes to fight with me about everthing , I'm falling toward the emeny. I don't know what to do . of course theirs the (no break up with a girl rule ) but ( Read more... )

Wtf , I'm only getting three to four hours of sleep , and all because of these meds. I was even to tired to hang out with my gf .I walked into her house gave her the pizza , kissed her and left.what kind of boyfriend would do that. I got to make time for her. fuck!!!!!!! its so hard sometimes. I only got two hands and both are busy as hell. maybe ( Read more... )

almost had her , but did i want to have sex with her this earler ? i think not , because unlike my other girl friends I'm not in it for the sex. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME? I'm so screwed up.

so i was a the dmv in jasper today and this little 16 year old girl wAS making faces at me , you know the kind flirting . first off ewwwww and second i just walked up to her and said this (which at the time i didn't think of this but i have balls) hey i apperactice you making faces and flirting with me but i have a girlfriend and secondly i'm way ( Read more... )

ok so I can speak honestly in here since only two people are allow to read this red ribbon and hera , and i know they won't tell anybody . so here it goes , I have a girlfriend and I'm already to break up. there's something really wrong with me , I'm broken , I'm ditacth. she's cute and sweet and all around nice girl . she has a house and a job and ( Read more... )