I guess it is a good thing I never post here anymore... It generally means that I am not as depressed and messed up as I used to be. Life is slowly moving along and I was terrified of what may happen. but I have come to the conclusion that worrying about everything only makes things worse ( Read more... )

So I guess it's about time for my annual update ( Read more... )

I keep forgetting about this thing, but I just had a revelation and felt that this was probably the best place to put it, so here it is.

Life has been strange, difficult, easy, and everything else. I might get a raise at work, but I might not. I am slowly pulling away from my desire to have a girlfriend, but I am craving it so much more too. Very ( Read more... )

Haven't been here in awhile ( Read more... )

First and foremost, my car was broken into. I was pretty pissed at first, but then I realized that the fucker didn't get anything of real value except a couple CDs and my sunglasses.... oh well. That being said if I find the fucker that did it, I will happily return the rock he smashed my window with to him, in a very unkind fashion ( Read more... )

The writing beneath the text is what matters, the writing you will never see...

Everything is ok and fine, finally...
I just have to plow through this paper and lab and I'll be doing pretty good.

I'm happy to talk to and see her, even if it is through a computer screen....

I miss my angel, even if she has horns propping up her halo.

Wow, I'm right back where I started from and I'm feeling like shit all over again. I thought I had gotten over this I thought I had it all figured out. But here I am, doing the same stupid shit, over and over again only now I have alot more destructive things that I can do.  I really need to spend some time and think about what's goin on in my life ( Read more... )

Stevo: The Fight: What does it mean and where does it come from? An Essay: Homosapien. A man. He is alone in the universe. A punker. Still a man. He is alone in the universe, but he connects. How? They hit each other. No clearer way to evaluate whether or not you're alive. Now. Complications. A reason to fight. Somebody different. Difference ( Read more... )

It hits when the sun goes down. When my mind empties of all other stresses. I realize how much I have lost, and realize that the path infront of me leads me nowhere. My only escape is to think of what is to come. A double edged sword of good fortune and bad luck.

I have so much and should be thankful for the life I've been given, but I can't help ( Read more... )

Paul is getting baptised in the Mormon church today

I say good for him and I wish him the best of luck.