I wish that i can make people understand what it is to have a long distance relationship. I thought quitting smoking was one of the hardest things ive ever had to do. Then hannah went to college. Sometimes it seems like we lead 2 different lives. Sure we talk but she has school and i have work. We are both to distracted to give each other time. I ( Read more... )

I don't understand. Everything i do is wrong. Everything i do im an asshole for. Everything i say is not fair to her and only her. As if she is the only innocent one. As if she doesnt make any mistakes, im sure if she was reading what i just typed she would say i never said that, you are putting words in my mouth. The words come though your actions ( Read more... )

today i come to you as a person that is having one of the best years of his life.....i dunno what it is...i know hannah has alot to do with it...and i know i know whomever reads this is tired of hearing me talk about her...but...I DON'T CARE!!....its been a very long time since we have been going out...about a year and 3 months....and still to this ( Read more... )

ok...well...for whom ever that person is that said they were sorry is forgiven....i just don't know who you are....and why you read my journal at all...im glad that you understand the way i feel.....now for the other person that said i caused them not to have any friends or something like that needs to tell me who they are....cause as far as im ( Read more... )

ok.....so alot fo things have been going down recently....i have tons of pressure...to get a job from my parents....I CAN ONLY DO SO MUCH...and guess what?....im going to talk about hannah...so whomever reads this...if you don't like it....fuck off...anyway...see lately i have been working on this telling her when im mad thing....and its hard for ( Read more... )

listen for the person that left that last comment...i could give a flying fuck you think about me...if i choose to go on and on about hannah than im going to do it...if you don't like it than don't read my journal...are we jealous?...that you don't have someone else...that you don't have a person you would give up everything for...yes i may be ( Read more... )

wow.....amazing....those 2 words describe how hannah is to me...even though there are so many more to describe her...ok...so....prom was this weekend...and let me tell you without hesitation...she was the most beautiful person there...i mean it was like we were standing in room alone...she was my focas...nothing else mattered at that point...she ( Read more... )

ok....i have realized alot of things recently...i am retarted....i have been doing alot of stupid things lately and i have no one else to blame but me....sure i mean i know im not perfect....but little things were affecting me in such a huge way....but...i am going to stop that...its affecting everyone around me....esp hannah....and i cannot deal ( Read more... )

ok....there has always been the thought of a job in the back of mind mind...i knew eventually i would have to get one in order to do what i do all the time..and im a big worrier...i worry that she will not love me anymore...i worry that she will get driven away by this...i was afraid it will slip away...but..see i was wrong....yes...it will change ( Read more... )

as i find myself sitting here with nothing to do...i think...alot...thats what i do...so thinking about all that has been happening over the past 2 or 3 days...i could not be more sorry than i have ever been in my life....but its over...i gave it to god....and i thought it was driving her away...but then i realized that it wasn't...she said she ( Read more... )