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a life worth remembering
My friend died last week.
My friend, who lived life as fully as anyone I know.
I have been, like all of you who knew her, incredibly sad. It has felt like my heart has been broken with no repair in sight. This sadness leaves, returns, followed by anger at the world for taking her so soon.
Her death has caused me to appreciate the fragility of life, ( Read more... ) -
never again
So this is Ms. Kelly freakinamazing Clarkson's new song. It's pretty much amazing!! Why is it that i seem to have conversations the da before i get new songs and find out some of the lyrics are the exact quotes from my conversation? Crazy. Anyway. there are a few things i'd like to say before you read the lyrics.
1. David Hodges is the biggest fuck ( Read more... ) -
countdown to me
Ten random things about me:
- one of my all time favorite things in life is when i am driving in rain and i drive under an overpass and the rain stops for just a second...it's that one second of calm in the middle of a thunderstorm.
- i've been running away from theatre my entire life though it's the only place i've ever felt 100% comfortable. i'm ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly ( Read more... ) -
um wow
i pretty much don't remember typing the one from last night. oh drunken depressed blogs. got to love them. but tis true what they say...drunk minds speak what sober minds think. i DO miss him. he was a safe place in the storm and right now, i could really use that. it;s been a while since i coud just escape everyone else and just BE with someone... ( Read more... ) -
missing him
i can't help but miss him on nights like tonihgt. he was there dor me for almost an entire youea and now it's months before we talk and then weeks ager that. i miss my friend that i could go to hen things were rough. i miss the friend i could go to for a hug when i needed it, a kiss when i wanted it, a person in my bed making me feel sagfe when he ( Read more... ) -
but i break
sometimes i just can't deal with life. sometimes i just feel like running and hiding and never coming back. i feel like I'm back at the same old crossroads of my life. except this time, i don't care where the paths lead because I'm not sure i want to even travel down any of those roads. i guess the best way i can put my life right now is this...
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untitled and unfinished
They say clothes and hair don’t make the woman.
I suppose whoever they are said something true
But when it’s your heart and soul that’s changed
And everything in your life if is rearranged,
I can’t help but wonder if there’s still room enough for me
You’ve been there for as long as I can recall
And leaving you to go off into the world wasn’t easy
I’ve ( Read more... ) -
run away, run and find something better...
i miss you. i miss being able to come to you when i don't know where else to go. i miss sharing inside jokes with you, i miss our talks about the future. i miss how i felt for the first time in a long time. i miss who i used to be when we were ok. i miss our thursdays, and our target runs. i miss our ice cream and acoustic lunches. i miss going out ( Read more... ) -
but to you i'm just your friend
i got extremely drunk and don't remember much of last night. -- transition to anonymity -- we went out on the porch to talk. i wish i knew exactly what was said. we talked about her, and me and why he hadn't told me sooner. i know i'm not the most important person to him, but he's a very important person in my life and i guess i just expected more ( Read more... )