i think i definately like camp better than being home. i hate the vanity that comes with home. in the woods is more fun, because i don't have to be perfect. i'll write more about camp later.

i just had one of the most amazing kisses of my life! i love being in love!! i really don't know what i'd do without my Darrell. Words can't even begin to describe how i feel about him.

....but i'm still confused.

the beach all in all was definately an experience. i know what to do, what not to do...among other things. pms set in pretty bad while i was there, and so did cabin fever. i'm definately glad to be home. i hope things get back to normal. in a way though, they're getting back to the way they used to be, but not in a good way. now its gonna be back ( Read more... )

i just saw my godfather! i'm extremely excited and so happy that i got to see him today and that i get to see him tomorrow!!!! he's the only guy that treats me like a REAL princess, besides darrell, but he talks to me like i really am royalty. gosh, i love him ( Read more... )

this computer + me on vacation = horrible vacation. probly won't be back on here til saturday or sunday.

tonight i watched phantom of the opera with meghan and april!! i always have so much fun with those two! i finally told annie shubella that mychal moore died, and heres how the phone conversation went ( Read more... )

Tonight was so much fun!!! We went to the Schnecksville Fair, April, Nikki, Vanilla Darrell, Bobby and Chad. My mom told me it was Seeing eye puppy night, but I didn't wanna bring Ula. First Darrell and I got there, walked around by the cows and pigs and other animals (that look like me). Then we went on the bumper cars and this spinner ride where ( Read more... )

i've been at war with myself these past few days. i had my first day of work today at LVCC and had to tell the lady i was going to a funeral tomorrow and couldn't come into work. my parents don't want me to go to HDYC tomorrow, and i don't really want to either. i kind of feel like i'm being forced to go. people ask me about him dying like i don't ( Read more... )

i can't take this. i miss him so much all of a sudden. last night i went on live journal cuz i couldn't sleep. what if i did fall asleep right away? no one would know until today. it feels weird being the first to find out about something so tragic. i'm glad i made friends with his friend Dawn, otherwise I would have never found out about this. Its ( Read more... )

mostly how i feel...but from someone else's perspective:

one thing, realize this, nobody wants u to air their dirty laundry, this dirty laundry is that fact that nobody feels perfect, everyone compares themself to others saying they are better, but the fact is nobody wants to hear the truth and truth does hurt, by u bringing it up it makes other ( Read more... )