I have completely ruined myself financially, lost most friends due to them getting lives outside partying, and completely alienated from my family. The money part is fully my fault, and there is no short term remedy. It is a giant hole that there may not be a way out of. I can safely say, this is the low point of my life. I truly hope I can make a ( Read more... )

I knew the day would come. I feel at rock bottom. Emotionally, financially, physically. For some reason, I am excited about it. I feel its the opportunity to start a new. I just see all my friends getting married, living great lives. Close to their families. And then theres me. Single my entire life. Never let people get close. Not even family. ( Read more... )

Hi there life. 28 Years old, starting to get back into track and field shape, living with my best friend (who is soon to be a father), and weeks away from making probation and being assigned to where I will be working for a long time. I'd say I am pretty happy. I have been slowly drifting away from my family, which is what I need to work on the ( Read more... )

I seem to be reverting back to my old ways. Lots of drinking and partying, but am I Really THAT happy?? Im not sure. I have a career, I am starting to train again, but for some reason, I just dont feel that completelness? It could be im looking for love, or maybe its just not enough? I need something more in my life? I wish I knew....I just need to ( Read more... )

Gosh...I dont wanna jinx it. Could it be I may have finally found someone...like for real this time...Not a whore, not a flirt. A really actually nice, kind, caring, beautiful girl..............wow, its so very possible. Things are looking up.

This is my last week at the police academy. There were times I really didnt think I would make it. But I pushed myself, and did everything in my power to succeed. Now I will be graduating Friday, all my family and friends watching me on the biggest day of my life, getting my police certification and top physical recruit award. I earned every bit of ( Read more... )

I got a career. I am going to a be police officer for the university of chicago. A city cop!! its going to be so awesome, I start the chicago police academy monday. My hard work is going to pay off. My running is going well too.

Almost everything is in place, love is the final piece of the puzzle.

Here we go!

2 and a half months out of college, and I cant say fully that I am enjoying it, because I'm not. Im not happy, but I am not sad either. I have not found a career, I have not found love, and I still have not fully found myself. These are tough and stressful times, and I am trying hard to find a life that I want.

its time to start a new chapter in my life ( Read more... )

I have not posted on here for at least a year, and no single friend of mine is on here anymore, but I felt the need to write to myself. My life has had its ups, and its downs. For the most part the last year or 2 has been downs. Why you ask? Because I base my life around finding love. Its the worst way to live your life...and it tears me apart day ( Read more... )