I am gonna purge my soul.  I am really failing these days.  I am struggling beyond compare but in a day or so, all might be well.  I am up for a new job at work and I am HOPING so hard that I get it.  It is perfect, (well, no) because it is the money I want, the shifts I want, it is at the same place I am working now, and it would make all my drama ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think a lot about myself.  Most of the time I am in love with the subject of my thoughts.  Not lately, but I know that I will return to self adoration.  Just not right now.  But I am trying, so that is a start.

Happy birthday asshole

Can't Wait lyrics

I can't wait, wait for you to change your mind
It's late, I'm tryin' to walk the line
Well, it's way past midnight
And there's some people all around
Some on their way up, some on their way down
The air burns and I'm tryin' to think straight
An' I don't know how much longer I can wait.

I'm your man, I'm tryin' to recover the ( Read more... )

( Behold the woe is me post of October 15th 2008 )

Lately, I am not sure where I am.  I am not sure if I am happy, because I believe I should be.  I have a great life.  Iam not sure if I am sad, because I believe I should be because I am broke and in love with someone I can not have.  I don't know.  Maybe I am insane.  But at least for the first time in forever I can safely say that the person I am ( Read more... )

I turned 30 that day.  That was yesterday.  I am not having an easy time right now in  life and I don't really think anyone wants to hear about my whining.  But I am gonna endulge my self loathing for just a moment to complain.  I hate being so sad.  I don't even know why I am sad.  Probably because I am exhausted and poor and single.  Someday ( Read more... )

I say a lot of things I don't necessarily mean and I do a lot of things I am not really all that proud of, but one thing will never change, and that is how I wish the utmost happiness upon you.  I really do.  You may strike against me, you may prove unworthy of my benevolence, you may slap me across the face.  All crimes can be looked past and I ( Read more... )

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today I am sitting here waiting. not for just one thing, but for several. I hate it. I am anxiously awaiting my cruise, and it is cold as balls. I am waiting for my dad to get better from his surgery. I am waiting to find out about whether i am going to have to work on Sunday. I am waiting to get some either really good or really bad news. I ( Read more... )

today I am sitting here waiting. not for just one thing, but for several. I hate it. I am anxiously awaiting my cruise, and it is cold as balls. I am waiting for my dad to get better from his surgery. I am waiting to find out about whether i am going to have to work on Sunday. I am waiting to get some either really good or really bad news. I ( Read more... )