Surgery is today at 1PM.

Couldn't sleep last night. :( Meh

I guess I can catch up on my sleep while I am in the hospital....

NOT!!!!!

I will post when I can.

Coral

I lost a friend yesterday. Someone who I was once in love with and was dating but then we broke up and became the just friends. Yesterday he walked out of my life. The pain is so hard to let go of. It was his choice to no longer be friends and it was not what I wanted. But he had to make the choice for himself and not worry about me and what I ( Read more... )

I just looked back at some posts and now I realize that that was a bad idea.

Feeling anxiety come up and bite me in the ass and makes the tears start.

UGH

Maybe it is a combo of looking back and not having my surgery tomorrow.

Don't know. I think I will go to sleep soon so I don't have to think about it.

Gnite all.

My surgery is postponed for 2-3 weeks. :(

Have to get my blood work better.

Ugh.

For those of you that know or care I go in for the neck surgery on Wed and will go home thurs or friday.

Will be in a neck brace for a week and will be unable to drive for 4 weeks.

So if anyone wants updates let me know.

*hugz*

Coral

I have learned much about myself in the past 2-3 months. I have found a small amount of self respect and it won't allow me to allow others to use me. Which means that I don't get out much ( Read more... )

Why is it so hard for me to tell people my feelings? Why do I hide them inside. I think it is because I am afraid if I really let go, really say what is festering inside of me and even possibly cry, or scream, or just really let loose that I will lose the very friends that want me to let it all out ( Read more... )

Your result for The OkCupid Kissing Test...

The Romantic

You are 57% Passionate, 51% Romantic, and 67% Experienced!


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God I wish that I could change who I am. Change how I feel about people and myself. I would be so much better off if I developed a thicker skin and stopped caring so much. Stopped caring about what people thought about me. Stopped caring and just let my feelings be made known and let the fur fly ( Read more... )