I've been battling this stupid ass flu since last week and now I feel hell of alot better but the feeling still lingers....I broke like seven fevers today alone. I want to sit in a sauna and just sweat the ickiness away. My neck area is still achey and shoulders but not as bad.

we got pulled over because i spaced out not putting my seat belt...so now i gots to pay a bloody ticket before the show lol...stupid pig. i will some day push him off his bloody motorcycle...

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I love her forever till my last dying breathe. To touch her soft silky skin is like being on extasy 100 fold. To make love to her is like a euphoric bliss. Her eyes I get lost the very second I look into them. By Monday I'm hoping they just let her go...I'm going to do a seance tonight and tomorrow night....and just meditate the whole night ( Read more... )

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Once again I line these bottles in a roll
Ready to take on the mighty toll
The vengence I have is strong
I know it will be wrong
To take on the very soul who did me in
Right now I don't can if it is a deadly sin
She will get hers in the end
The darkness seance to I will send
Karma is on her high horse
A she'll take you do with this course

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My mum is in the hospital and getting fluids pumped in her. I came home to hear the news she was coughing up blood. I just want to curl up in a ball and go to my darkest place. I shall reup my energy, I must feed again.

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I've been sober from everything from drugs to the alcohol for nine months I will be picking up my nineth month chip next month. It was a hard road but I managed on my own which I've always been strong about anything...My drug of choice to this day is my family, girlfriend and working my ass off till I passout not really but you get this jist. I'm ( Read more... )

i went to my councelor today and wow shit hit the fan for me. i have to write a paper on my substance use history-the whys of using...pros and cons. why did i reopen the drinking door. is it ok? yes, why? no, why? oh god now i really hating getting into trouble. i hate writing papers unless i'm writing my short stories or poems. well this are ( Read more... )