A few days ago was a whirl wind of emotions. Labor day was like any other day except i was off work. So i throw on some call of duty, check my phone. I about threw the damn thing across  the room. I yelled "mother fucker". My brother thought i had just died on the game, but i felt like i died a bit right then. I look at my facebook and see a name ( Read more... )

Today was another emontional day. Its been already been a month since my dad past. It has hit pretty hard the past few days.

I had to use my friends printer to print my resume. They invited us over for dinner. Jody declined so he could get more sleep. He definitely  needs it. My anxiety was high today and I almost didn't want to leave the house. I ( Read more... )

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so fucking pissed this morning.. did not get enough sleep. then i wake up to wet clothing.  then i was lookin forward to going to the bathroom. the damn toliet  is clogged. then i was goin get my drink for this mornin. bobby fuckin drank it. i am running behind for work cause of my clothing. happy fuckin friday... yay me...

there are so many things i want to say.. and yet i cant say them... i just wish i wasnt afraid of what i might lose

i had an amazing vacation!!!  dont believe i could have been any better(unless it was longer lol)... i had a blast!!! i miss jersey already!!!

i have a ton on my mind right now... i have a lot of things to put in motion with in the next year.  drivin for 15 hours gives you a ton of time to think.. so i got a lot of brain stormin goin on...

dreams oh how i hate you at times.  yes you were not that bad last night... spastic and random as usually. i really could have done with out bobby in them.  tho i am over him.. i really dont not want to experience any kind of social or personal interaction with him.. so from now on keep him out lol.

have you ever had one of those times where you having some much fun it doesnt seem like it could happen?

this week has been like that.. it has been perfect. i had the best birthday ever. nothin went wrong on  it at all.  i am in such a great mood.. this is a vacation i would want to have every time i go on vacation. i am havin an amazing time with ( Read more... )

last night i believe was the first time i got a full 8 hours of sleep in forever. i woke up well rested. no bad dreams. it was nice. i do hope this continues. if so  i would stay a sleep for the full 8 hours every night. 

im glad you visited me in my dreams last night.. i hope it  will happen again. i woke up in the best mood today!!!