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wieerdo

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Apr 19, 2005 22:34

Bah!!! I am slowly starting to hate girls... Not that I am ready to really date guys... But just the complications are so killing me... I hope things start to get better in that area... Well, they kinda are... But meh... So many things... Natalie & Sareena both told me last weekend that they dont love me as more then friends... I am OK with that ( Read more... )

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ericist April 20 2005, 07:06:04 UTC

I am glad to hear that, it's a great thing to feel.

wieerdo April 21 2005, 01:51:43 UTC

Meh, most of what I am feeling is definately NOT good... It is confusing, and painful, and I still care about Sareena and Nat... but I dont know what to do about that... It is obvious that they dont love me anymore... and so I have learned to not love them. I have learned that I dont have to keep loving anyone... So, while that is good, and a huge weight has been lifted by letting go of the lost loves of my life... At the same time... I have no love in my life now... So it is a free feeling... but a lonely feeling... all at the same time... and a time where things are stressfull and I really could use someone to be there. Anyways, talk to you soon, my friend.

rainingmercy April 20 2005, 14:22:26 UTC

You didn't leave me a a comment so I could adore you.

wieerdo April 21 2005, 01:52:39 UTC

I did now... but meh... what a day! Things suck... and I dont really have anywhere to go with that... and no embrace to comfort me.

myappel2grace April 20 2005, 21:57:02 UTC

(i only love you as a friend right now because that's the only way i can love you right now without getting you or me into trouble)

myappel2grace April 20 2005, 21:58:19 UTC

i'm going to shut up now

wieerdo April 21 2005, 01:46:18 UTC

No need to shut up. I dont know what you mean, and it hurts a bit still... But I guess we all do what we need to do to get along and survive. I understand your decisions. It makes sense that you have to get over me. But the conversation we had, you were talking about how you believe what everyone told you, and how you didnt think you ever would again... How it was fading, and even your friends could tell. I dont know what else to say. You said that Saturday, and Sareena told me she didnt love me anymore on Sunday. It sukd. It still sux. And it will suk. That is my life. I had hope for something... now I dont ( ... )

wieerdo April 21 2005, 01:47:36 UTC

I dont really know what you mean by that... Do you want to love me later? You didnt seem to want to... You hinted that it was completely gone, and there was no hope... meh... talk to me... let me know whats up... please!

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jezebellsescape April 22 2005, 03:42:24 UTC

hey, I'll be in town for mothers day. Maybe see you then?