I am starting to get depressed ( Read more... )

I understand but I dont want to listen ( Read more... )

I know almost every enrty I have put out is about gettinga  job. So as you can tell its killing me ( Read more... )

My finals are going really good so far! i have only taken one so far and tomorrow I have three finals. I studied really hard on them and i beleive I am ready.
I went to my friend Kurt's house to study for our PSY Final tomorrow. He's so gay and I love him!! He reminds me kind of how Ryans and I relationship was, just without the comment about the ( Read more... )

This might not make sense but i feel werid.
I feel sad and lonely!
I cant seem to do the things i need to do, and i am always wanting to sleep or listen to music.
I dont understand why b/c i have Tim now. I can tall him and talk to him whenever. So im not sure whyi feel so depressed.

Now that I have cleared out people from my friends list, I can write anything I want in here!

I have been wanting to get this out for the longest time. I WANT TO BE MYSELF AND DO THE THINGS I WANT TO DO WITHOUT BEING JUGDE OR PEOPLE TELLING ME NO!
I feel like i live my life the way my mom or tim wants me to live it. I like to smoke, i like to drink, ( Read more... )

Tim is back from Afg. and it is so so great!
I love him more then i can say and i wish we could spend every day together, like i did for the past month.
But he is gone, back to NC. Im not sure when i will get to see him next. At least now i can talk and see him on Skype and call him whenever i want.
Besides that I feel different when I am around him ( Read more... )

Still dont have a job ( Read more... )

Im am going into a depression.

There are things that have happened and that are going to happen that i just...regret and dont want.

I FUCKING HATE THIS

I need a bestfriend here. I want a girl friend i can tell everything too. I want girl talk. I want to go shopping with a girlfriend! Timothy is coming home soon and i need an outfit! A need a few... not just clothes too... i need sexy panties! haha ( Read more... )