I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut ( Read more... )

So i finally got my cash money!!!! I feel alot better now. Things here have progessively been getting better so the work drama is almost nill. Being that I got rid of one of my three jobs had alot to do with that I just couldn't deal with their crap anymore...you think that having been with that company for almost two years they would have treated ( Read more... )

Ah sweet melancholy it seems I'm drowning in it today. For once I would really love it if I could have NO DRAMA in my life. No personal drama and certainly no work drama which seems to be over abundant as of late. I have been with my new company(who shall remain nameless due to random live journal searches, it's a big company) for two months and I ( Read more... )

Way beyond empty ( Read more... )

Did you ever feel like you're standing on the edge of something great and you're waiting and waiting and waiting....you get to the point where you're like "COME ON ALREADY!!!!!!!" and it still doesn't happen....but you know it's there waiting...and there will be choices to be made...some of which you may not like, well in really you're almost ( Read more... )

I know it's been forever and a day since I last posted and now I'm going to take this oppertunity to be a big cry baby basically...So if you don't wanna read it...whatever ( Read more... )

and thus begins my two weeks of having no internet access...due to no phone line and I'll be damned if i'm going to go out and buy a cellular modem umm no i don't think so k thx...If it's a dire emergancy those of you who read this know how to reach me...the next 2 weeks will be...intresting.....tah for now...
snoogins

I push my fingers into my eyes...
It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache...
But it's made of all the things I have to take...
Jesus, it never ends, it works it's way inside...
If the pain goes on...
Aaaaaaaah!

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited as my time's elapsed
Now, All I do is live with so much fate
I've wished for ( Read more... )

why is it that people think they can play with your heart and when they're done with you they throw you away like a peice of garbage..so much disregaurd...relatioships are never an easy thing but to have atemper tantrum at every turn just bcause something doesn't go your way is bullshit. Relatioships take work, nothing comes on a platter...some ( Read more... )

I Don't Wanna be
I Don't Wanna be me
I Don't Wanna be me anymore

Ever throwing at his home
Two glass houses, twenty stones
Fourteen yellow, six are blue
Could it be worse.....quite doubtful

I Don't Wanna be
I Don't Wanna be me
I Don't Wanna be me anymore

I Don't Wanna be
I Don't Wanna be me
I Don't Wanna be me anymore

Two steps forward, three steps back
Without ( Read more... )