There is a guy I am interested in that is in Jay anad is in a band and is totally cute. His name is Chris and I have no idea why I am so into him. I am so interested that I am pursuing and flirting and everything else I can do to get with him. alright I am not obviously gonna give up. I care about him a lot and I love his playing I love his eyes ( Read more... )

I have yet to change history has repeated itself again, The whole thing about haveing a crush on a friend and where it could go. I am in a relationship and primarily happy.I just miss everyone I use to have in my life. I don't miss the beatings but I do miss the fun times. getting drunk and liveing life. gotta go. I am in a mood I guess don;t know ( Read more... )

I am in a place I never thought I would be. I am in Jay with a nice guy with a wild life. I am into this though. I am mellowed out quite a bit. I am not the same edgy high strung person I was, I am down to earth and know who I am for once. I am still fighting with UMF to get my classes scheduled. I am trying to get it all worked out for the best ( Read more... )

I am sitting in a bind between a rock and a hard place. College once again scares me but I know where I want to take it. I want to be a Ferensics Pshycologist. I want to work for the FBI and have been looking into oppertunities and most lead to Augusta and Portland. I am looking forward to my future though. I miss my friends one in particular and ( Read more... )

I am doing well still looking for a place to live. Still away from Dan. having the time of my life being happy and spoiled. I am still working on my health, I am back to getting sick for no reason. I am dealing with my bloodsugars and the consequences from Dan cheating on me. Health wise it is a lot to deal with. I am going insane. I am feeling as ( Read more... )

I have been feeling so sick lately. I found out Monday that I am eight weeks along, two months. I hope this time everything works out for the best. school is ok, I dropped my health class cause I can't do that much exercise until I get my sugars down. I am sorry if I have come across as a bitch in my responses I have been moody. miss all those ( Read more... )

I am sitting here in my whole work-study situation and the job seems pretty cool, but I am lost as to what I can do to pass the free time. I can't get a hold of Dan to bring me my book s to actually study and I didn't think to bring them with me in the first place. I am upset because I am in a situation where I am exhausted all the time if not most ( Read more... )

There are no entries from my friends I am so depressed what does everyone hate me now? I am losing my grip on life and if I have ever needed you guys its now more than ever. i love you all and miss you all very much.

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I am having quite a friday night so far, well not really, but I can think it if I want too. The friends I thought I was going to hang out with so far have done everything possible it seems to ditch me, I am not feeling to grand about myself at this point. I want to be happy, I want to have fun but it ain't happening. I just wish I knew what was ( Read more... )