but I needed a place to write down how I feel right now. And not be judged on myspace the way I would be. A blog entry there would only create controversy ( Read more... )

It surely is time.... to get out of here. The decision is always difficult as hell. I do not want to leave my family. I hate this area though. I don't think I have enough time to find a job and an affordable place by November. I can't continue the way I'm living. There are so many contradictions I have. Things that are pulling me back and ( Read more... )

I'm writing this so that I never forget it ( Read more... )

Basically what I would like is a music fest at my apartment. I love all these singers and seven of them wouldn't just be a concert, it would be a music fest. We could have a jam session that I just listen in on. In the living room of my apartment. It would consist of Syd (obviously.... well now they're all obviously, but him is obviously), Nick ( Read more... )

Apparently I don't know what I really want. And what I want will never make me happy or anything like that. Obviously I'm wrong. I mean it's not really my life or anything. Why does my dad have to say "the grass is always greener..." and why does Steve think that listening to awesome music in the city will get old? Maybe once I'm in my 30's ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted...mentally..physcially..maybe even emotionally. After tonight I'll have worked 50 hours this week so far...in five days. Once Sunday is done the final count will be 62. 62 hours is ridiculous. John called today and he said he was getting alarms. (When a station goes off the air it calls his pager.) I said it was because River ( Read more... )

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People keep telling me how great I am (in radio ( Read more... )

simple as that i've determined my life must change ( Read more... )

I just want to say that I keep wanting to write, but nothing is exciting enough to put on this screen.