sometimes, I wish he was finally death. I hate that he still exist and his alive somehow and I can't control the situation to know, that I am feeling this hate and pain again.
Life is disturbing, painful, hateful and changig. Sometimes I wonder if its even too much somehow.
I can't control it anymore and it makes me feel afraid.
somehow.

I sometimes think what would happen, if I would go back to munich? What would happen, if I would go back, back to this deep und uncontrable time. I totally miss the depressive and lost we felt and had to each other. Even if this reality believe sucks he was one of the people who made me feel worthy somehow.
Reality sucks anyway.

I should actually go to bed, but there are so many stories on my mind. When i always think of munich, is has been some of the best times and some of the worst times. But when I usually step into the atomic cafe or substanz, it feels like home. I had some of the best nights of my life in the atomic cafe, it is actually the best place to go in munich

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XCcGvDlM5jQ&feature=related

Classic stuff for sure.

As I got more than bored of facebook, i thought it would be easier to start a blog again. Well it has been a wonderful busy week. I have worked again, at a movie set for a movie called "Laura zu lieben" with two lovely actors called Doro und Klaas. It was just about two days but i loved it. The last movie I did has been too long and I actually can' ( Read more... )