hmm, things are finally getting better and settling down ( Read more... )

well, i thought it was finally time to update and share some news ( Read more... )

nick is in town. i am planning on getting him drunk for the second time in two weeeks baaaaahgagagagagag no i mean hahahah. yes. that is all. everything sucks except for this exact moment in time. i like spring, bu ti need to hcange more for uplifting results. yes i have been drinking. i quit on quitting. ive decided to skip out on portland and ( Read more... )

well, this week is finally coming to an end. how lovely. and with spring forward coming along i cant wait. i already feel winter melting away and the joy blooming with the tulips. tuesday i spent at the hospital with my grandma, but now shes better. thursday was great. international womens celebration day with lovely folk all around. we went to ( Read more... )

do you remember in science class, when the teacher gave us corks? and then we stuck a bunch of pins and sharp objects into them to see how much it took to make them sink? this is exactly how i feel ( Read more... )

holy shit i just got my charts read. it was amazing.
now i'm listening to nausea and drinking tea.
nights are lovely.

since sleeping through new years, i declare this my year of sleep...so far. it's hard to get used to after years of constant insomnia. oddly, even though i love sleeping all of the time i find myself with more energy. that could be the sobriety/quitsmoking/celibacy/almostveganorganicdiet/cutdownoncaffein/walkingridingmybikeverywhere. i'm lonely and ( Read more... )

it's snowing again. and it's beautiful. i'm trying to find peace in those flakes, and ignore the fact that i have been up since 4:30 this morning due to passing trains that shake the apt. building, and walking my cold ass to work so old folks can have their dishes washed. apparently there is going to be a stripper at carters party tonight? i'm not ( Read more... )

the apartment is awesome, sobriety has failed, or i failed sobriety and all in all life is awesome.
today is my first day of this long journey back to meeeeeeeeeeee. before it is too late. and i am going to do it sober. with a few slip ups i'm sure...but that is life. i hope you all are safe and well. xoxo

haha i saw black christmas. what a lovely movie to watch this time of year...blah. actually it was funny. despite the fact i was curled in a ball hiding in katy's arm ( Read more... )