I've got a new LJ account. I'm going to make it friends only, so if you want to be part of it, comment on the first post I make. That way people don't have to read my stuff and vise versa. Plus, this is a fresh start for me. I'm going to embrace what I have now. I want to be me and nothing else. Find new parts of me and pull them out. It ( Read more... )

I'm feeling indifferent. I don't care. Fuck that. No need to talk about anything. It'll just piss people off. I don't need that. I probably won't need this anymore either. I think I'm done. Yeah. This may be my last post. Whateva ( Read more... )

So the cable guy came over to hook up the internet and TV but apparently our existing thing is screwed up to hell and they have to come out and fix it...way the fuck later in the future. Urg. I have the money, just come and hook it up. Yeah. I have work tonight. It won't be too bad or too late. Probably easy stuff. I got sunburnt on my neck ( Read more... )

Today wasn't bad. I need more days like this. Life is a lot easier when I don't have to worry about any bullshit. This was fun. I hope things continue not to suck so bad.

Its been a while since I've posted. But I'm not dead. Urgh. Life is just about the same as always. I have too many options right now. I don't want to act on all of them because I don't want to mess anything up. I hope I haven't with anyone so far. You know how I feel. It is in a sense my fault. You are right. Or were. What you said ( Read more... )

The best 89 cents ever spent was spent on a White Chocolate Mocha coffee drink thing from the 76 Station when the bus driver missed my stop. I pulled it a full 30 seconds before my desired stop. He didn't. I got up and said, "My stop was the last one." He said, "You pulled it too late." I damn near bitched him out, but instead I said, "Fuck it ( Read more... )

Somebody with all of the knowledge of the last few days tell me what I should have done. Anybody. Seriously, because I did what needed to be done. There was something that wasn't good going on and I did take it upon myself to fix it. Sure I fucked somethings up along the way, but that doesn't matter because "No one cares about (him) anyway". ( Read more... )

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I realized today about how it was a game. Oh well. Things will look up. I hope they do ( Read more... )

I might be able to buy jeans. I can't believe I said that. Maybe its not such a bad look. Its just not me. Maybe it is. Maybe I've been pushing it down for so long trying to be someone who I'm not. Fuck. I don't know. I said I will attempt. Thats what I'm going to stick to.