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I fucking give up.

What did you care?

Shrug me off your shoulders.

It's not like I matter.

It's not like I have feelings anyway.

I haven't written in this for awhile now. Well I haven't been doing much lately besides listening to music and watching TV. I read my first book in three years on Saturday, I'm quite proud of myself for finishing it in about 5-6 hours. I read "The Five People You Meet In Heaven" I think it's a really good book which changed my views on life. It ( Read more... )

Do you know what's most important to me?

I played Monopoly by myself for four people.  It was a pretty good game, it lasted about six hours and I played it for two nights.  I've been thinking a lot and I realize how worthless I actually am.  I'm not good at anything, I fail at everything I try to attempt.  If you really put thought into it, there ( Read more... )

I am worthless. I'm no longer codependant. I want to have an emo band practice. I love having deep conversations with people at night.

I think I can fly but besides that I'm here eating Oreos.

Hm, It's been awhile since I last wrote in this. I don't know what to write aobut anymore, I used to write about what I did but I don't do anything anymore. There seems to be a lot of time where it's just a pen, paper, acoustic guitar and me. Very intimate times with myself ( Read more... )

So tonight as I walk the moon makes faces at the trees. It's so nice to make fun of everything that I lost, and I miss, and I love but never had. Tonight I'm gonna take a test to grow up. So I'm sorry for the things I've done to everyone. It's not your face I can't tell but I try to be this way. It's my own.

It is what I can't accept

I can't do this anymore ( Read more... )

There's a lot of snow outside. I shoveled for about 2 hours last night and then one this afternoon. It's kind of cold with the wind blowing, really it is.

I changed my LJ icon finally, I like it a lot. Watch it for a few minutes.

Just tie the rope and kick the chair,
leave me hanging there gasping for air.
Dont mind me three feet from the