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A year ago today my piece of shit ex beat me and held me there against my will, using my phone as hostage. I didn’t call the police. She told me if I did that she will tell them that I was hitting her too. She hit herself and gave herself a huge bruise on her left arm. I didn’t tell anyone except on of my best friends. It was then that I should ( Read more... ) -
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We'll see...
The universe has a way of placing things on your doorstep exactly when you need them. I've been having odd dreams lately. Wanting things so bad that I'm having crazy scenario dreams.
All I can do is hope. Wish. Love. and find solace in that. Surrounding myself with white white light full of nurturing and protective energies. <3 <3 <3 Soon we'll ( Read more... ) -
That Dark Hole
I have moments where I look at the puzzle of my past and try to piece things together to make them fit. I think back to times I was wronged. Times that I wronged. And try to contemplate how the hell I came out of it.
Often I'm ashamed. Christina is a regret. That boy that only wanted a girlfriend is a regret. Not standing up for what is right is a ( Read more... ) -
A pretty heavy update.
A couple of weeks ago a close friend of mine asked me if I'd adopt her baby if she were indeed pregnant. I was so moved.. So overwhelmed. I was happy, afraid, astounded. I thanked her and said of course! That I'd just have to talk to Michelle about it because we've always wanted to adopt eventually but I wasn't sure if Michelle would be okay with ( Read more... ) -
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After all the evil people I've run through from the very start of my young life you would think that I wouldn't be surprised when a new one rears it's ugly head.
Have to learn to be strong.
Have to learn to be on guard.
Have to learn to be prepared.
Have to learn to be ready.
When will we learn?
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Post from. 3 weeks ago that never posted
Daylight savings time change hasn't been my friend. I've woken up two times already pretty damn late. Once 15 minutes before I had to leave the house and this morning 5 minutes before I had to leave the house. I got to get my shot in order. For real.
And I think that May be why I'm so annoyed. I'm annoyed with a mutual friend of mine that keeps ( Read more... ) -
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I am beyond upset. What gives someone the right to arrange a fight? To promote physical violence. To stand there and say, "let them fight!"? To grab someone that is trying to keep the so mother fucking hard peace? To be coward enough to pounce on someone when they fell and are already on the ground, not able to properly defend themselves? What ( Read more... ) -
Mommy
Staring at my eyes
I see your light
The gleam of hope
The glisten of compassion
Deepened by the trials of the past
Softened by the glow of love
I see you, mom.
I see you.
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Raindrops are falling
And it feels so good to be alive.
<3