i miss european bathroom floors, ribcages, backbones, bruises inside out,tea bag fights,trendy clothes with big hair, long coach rides, and linking arms with emy oversea.

i don't want to talk about it..

i'll be back in school sometime after thanksgiving.

yesterday was so good. felt happy almost. normal almost. missed paul and jeff tons and i was so glad to see them.

today sucks. today sucks. today sucks.

sorry.

went to the doctor again today. was there yesterday too. spent the better half of the past two weeks waiting in waiting rooms, and talking to strangers,having them pry into my brain.
can't wait for sunday. working with jess 9-1 and then seeing
my favorite acushnet boys<33. haven't seen them since the end of august. can't wait. can't wait. can't ( Read more... )

i mentioned the unmentionables.

hate this. hate this. hate this.

i am a selfish, selfish girl. ew.

feel like i'm going to throw up.felt like this since about 8:30 last night. didn't want to go to your house. tried to stay in the car but they made me come in. told me to try and fix it..make it better. but i can't fix what never went wrong. you just kinda sat there, wearing my pants, with this blank look on your face. like you didn't recognize me. ( Read more... )

didn't do anything today. just sat around. collectively drank 7 cups of coffee. don'think i could sleep even if i tried. went to newbury comics to buy lua and take it easy (love nothing) and didn't have enough money. girl working there liked bright eyes too and thought i was cute so she gave me a dollar. my face turned so pink. home now.. listening ( Read more... )