I am avoiding studying before my one and only final...that i have in like 50 minutes ( Read more... )

Finally i had to call in sick....leading me to boredom and helping brenton feel better too ( Read more... )

So my torture continues-school starts monday and i am dreading it. I am however now med trained so i can pass out prescription meds to the kids(kinda scary) and i can put them into physical holds which is kind of scary again but also an amazing sense of control ( Read more... )

I have found that latly i have the desire to see strong women in politics and supporting views such as animal rights and womens right but beyond that i now see my own desire to be a strong women. In the job i have right now strength is so important-both mental and physical. I see people cutting themselves, puking on purpose, beating the shit out of ( Read more... )

It's almost 11:30 and i just realized that i haven't showered and i am starting to feel gross. My paycheck was once again not direct deposited as it is supposed to be so i have to go pick it up and as good as all that money sounds i am just not in the mood. Do you ever feel unsatisfied? So unsatisfied that your body just aches? Well thats me-one ( Read more... )

I think my body is forcing me to mature and learn how to handle things differently. I keep telling the girls at work(the clients that is) that they need to have more respect for themselves, that by being women we are already the superior sex and we need to act like it meaning that cutting themselves and throwing up as means of control are no longer ( Read more... )

Its just after 6am on my first day off in a while-not quite sure why i am awake, i think its because i went to sleep at like 10 last night, actually i fell asleep on Brentons shoulder-luckily i am not a drooler. I am going to need a nap before Brew Fest...V- what about oktoberfest? Isn't it in October? When we would all be 21?! Its a definite idea ( Read more... )

I finally have my own internet and i can now rejoin society and be somewhat plugged in. My job is so tiring latly, so many kids have been put in holds and have to be escorted to their rooms and i am just on my feet constantly, weather its wrestling some 14 year old boy who is twice my size or simply unlocking stuff like the bathroom, or their rooms ( Read more... )

So Bend...has brought many things so far: mentally ill children who still manage to light up my day despite their problems and my own, a 1999 volvo in beautiful condition, debt for the volvo(worth it though) and a townhouse that is to big for me to know what to do with it. My grandparents are a 3 minute drive away which i love because they are so ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is the big day, i finally move into my new townhouse in Bend. Drove over to it yesterday while Brenton was here and we noticed that we have 2 of our own private parking spots plus our garage, very nice. Doug, my dad and jeremy are going to help me move stuff in since Brenton is finishing up his class. Then i meet up with the grandparents ( Read more... )