I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive ( Read more... )

 I’m not
I'm not trying to save the world. I just never knew what "making the world a better place for the next generation " meant  until recently. I love kids, but its different when you are close to them. When you want them to have all the best things in life, when no matter what mood you are in, hearing them laugh just makes everything better.

I ( Read more... )

Is it neccesary for everything to break apart to come back together? How much of this is my doing? I,as a rule, could give less than a shit what people think. 
But it only takes one well placed shot to bring someone down. and even though I didn't go down completly, it did leave a certain gaping wound. And a part of me shut down. 
Never ending cycle. 
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"so,how are you feeling? " my mom asks me. Parry, parry, block block. 
But this sort of why I called, so I figure we might as well get it over with. My choice: break mama's heart, or just let her be ignorant. 
I'm a dumb kid. Part of me wants to run to my mother with everything. I never do, but this time, I decided to roll the dice. 
"Better than I ( Read more... )

well take me, take me back to your bed
I love you so much that it hurts my head
say I don't mind you under my skin
I'll let the bad parts in, the bad parts in
when we were made we were set apart
life is a test and I get bad marks
now some saint got the job of writing down my sins
the storm is coming, the storm is coming in

I miss it. 
There is a ( Read more... )

I have officially run myself into the ground here. I give. Taking a day off to rest, relax, catch up on some school work... basically, taking a day where I can just slow down for a little bit ( Read more... )

Stress is ( Read more... )

So the past two and change weeks have been freaking awesome. it is the happiest i've felt in a long time. There are somethings that became very clear to me, and some things I stand corrected on. Ultimatly, I still come out feeling reassured and happier ( Read more... )

laundry- washed and waiting patiently on the bed to be folded.
cleaning- done. as clean as a small space packed with shit can get.
mini melt down- under moderate control.
packed for faire- bah humbug. few hours left before work to handle that.
coffee would be nice. i want coffee. and yogurt.

I have too much to do before then ( Read more... )