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windsweptthumb

Possible Final Entry

Dec 17, 2009 15:52

I have not been on LJ much lately and haven't posted in ages. My life is in a serious state of collapse and things seem pretty hopeless now. I realized how bad things had gotten when it occurred to me that I need to make sure my will states that my remains are not to be moved back to Florida. Even in death I want to avoid that hellhole of a state. ( Read more... )

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bjscrowd December 17 2009, 22:47:01 UTC

the words we tell ourselves and that we use to describe our life and situations are very powerful, if the words we use are filled with dread and hopelessness, in our opinion we will this is what we happen, we live up to the words we use. A medicine can only help, we need to do things to change and help our situation. I hope you can try to be more positive in the way you talk to yourself. I don't know you so I can't know all your going through but please remember words are powerful and should be chosen wisely to help our spirits. I always find something to be thankful for no matter how bad I feel.

I am thankful that you shared here and pray that things will feel brighter for you soon

windsweptthumb December 17 2009, 23:01:36 UTC

Thank you. It is very difficult lately. The holidays make it even more so. The one thing I have to be thankful for is that I did finally make it up her to NJ last year and I have made it through a year here. In case I have not said this before I LOVE THIS STATE. But honestly there isn't much else happy in my life. The meds are mostly for the anxiety and panic. I don't expect them to give me hope and probably would not trust a medicine that did. Anyways, thanks again for the kind words.

rathess December 19 2009, 22:37:11 UTC

bjscrowd, thank you for saying this. windsweptthumb, this is what I've tried to say also and I fear I failed to express it in a way that helped you. I wish you luck in resolving the situation.

nessachan December 17 2009, 23:12:39 UTC

Ho ho holllld on a minute there. I dito what BJ says up above there, being pretty used to a constant stream of negativity coming my way by someone who does not deserve to feel miserable. I doubt you deserve to feel miserable either. Helping yourself to feel worse makes you just as bad as other people who may send abuse/negativity your way ( ... )

windsweptthumb December 18 2009, 17:40:45 UTC

I believe I DO deserve to feel miserable, at least as much as anyone else, and probably a good deal more. I have never been a very good person and I have a lot to be miserable about. Like I said, the worst part is I am basically forbidden to explain why, at least at the moment ( ... )

nessachan December 19 2009, 00:52:49 UTC

I was thinking along the lines of a shelter, outreach, soup kitchen, meals on wheels, etc. that tends to have programs around this time of year or needs people to run errands on Christmas Day or around thereabouts. I don't know anything specifically as every community has different services, but I'm sure someone is serving a dinner or something where they could use volunteers.

As for Hopeline, again I don't know specifics but you can probably call them for depressed & stressed as well. If you don't fell comfortable doing that, I'm sure there is another hotline that could help.