I learned a lot this weekend.
New rule:

Always follow your heart. If it feels wrong then it probably is so don't do it.

I never want to hurt you ever again.

so tired... drugged up.. yet too anxious to sleep.

I should stop caring about people when it's pretty apparent that nobody cares about me.

My boss is so funny. She e-mailed me half an hour ago so I e-mailed her back answering her question and she replied ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since I wrote in this and I think I really should keep this updated....I always read my old posts and see that I haven't changed at all which is really bad ( Read more... )

I'm SO ANGRY. I HATE CRAZY PEOPLE.
OMG I CAN'T DEAL WITH IT ANYMORE I JUST WANNA PUNCH HIM IN THE FACE HE IS SO CRAZY!!!!

okay sorry had to let that out... x__X

I am the queen of making mistakes and pushing away the people who are most important to me...

my heart is imploding.

Okay.
Diet: Take 3.
Wish me luck.
I feel really fat and gross about myself.
Plus with the nicer weather I will definitely be taking advantage of our nice gym.
[need to get my moneys worth of the this school before I graduate!]

( My favorite Rigby )

I think I'm getting fatter.
Dammit!
Oh well.
This just means I need to get my fat ass to the gym more.

Oh yeah Spring Break next week. YAY.

( Oh yeah, which do you prefer? )

Diet take two.
I cheated too much over the weekend...
I don't even want to weight myself.
I'm finally ready to commit though!
Except tomorrow is wine Wednesday so I'm gonna drink some Japanese plum wine. :]

Unfortunately sadness makes me hungry and want to eat even more. :\

And just cause I can:


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Last night when I weighed myself I was 126.5.
That was a few hours after I had eaten a BIG meal (whoops!).
This morning 125.
So I guess I'm happy.
Have to start eating healthier meals though...


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