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I am so lonely
I am so lonely. I wish I had friends to go out and hang with. I wish Kat wasn't avoiding me. The truth is I miss her. I miss having a friend to talk to and cheer me up. I am just so lonely. I want to hang out with someone. The children used to fill that gap for me, but since I am not working at child care or Head Start. I know this is ( Read more... ) -
My Bipolar depression Poem
NOTES - I wrote this short poem when I was having a hard time last night. I wrote it quickly and it has caught on in my support group ( Read more... ) -
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NOTES - I was totally out of it when i wrote this. I was crying then being mad then crying again. I couldn't concentrate on one subject ( Read more... ) -
thanksgiving
so much is going on in my mind. I'm definetely in a mixed mania. My heart is so sad and depressed. I wish kat would just work everything out with me. I miss my best friend so much. I wish she didn't have plans for thanksgiving because I would love to take her and Dylan to see my grandparents and my whole extended family for thanksgiving. I ( Read more... ) -
I'm in a mixed mania episode
right now i am in a mixed state of hypomania. I've gotten so much work done the last few days. I'm horny as hell, yet my appetite has increased and my sadness is still there. The sky is beautiful and I want to go outside, yet I don't have the energy to ( Read more... ) -
The bridge between Child Care and Head Start
I want to say that Head Start is my
life, but it isn't. The kids of this community are. When I was the
school age teacher, that classroom was my entire life and every spare
moment was spent on how to help that classroom. I could go on
forever about all the things that are in that room because I
advocated or bought them myself, but this isn't a bragging ( Read more... ) -
It has been a long time
It has been so long since I posted a journal entry. A lot has happened and I have been dealing with a deep depression where everything is overwhelming for me. It has been hard for me to concentrate and remain focused on one thing. Even now I am trying my hardest to stay on task writing this. I will star t by recapping some of the things that ( Read more... ) -
I just made a new friend
I love facebook. I just made a new friend on Facebook. Her name is Toni and she lives out near the Gorge amphitheater. We talked about our lives for over an hour. I feel really good now. It seems that at least this social interaction is good for my depression ( Read more... ) -
My first year in ECE
I realized these last few days that you have no idea the things I did before you arrived. Your perception has been of someone who only works occassionally in the classrooms. That is why I want to give you an account of the first year I worked at Child Care and Head Start before you arrived from Richmond.
My ECE experience began in spring of 2009 ( Read more... ) -
Kat and mine misunderstanding
I know Kat and I somehow have a misunderstanding. She says I crossed a line on Wednesday. I don't know what I did to cross a line. It is obvious we need to talk together to figure out what our misunderstanding is. It might need to have someone mediate between us so it doesn'tbecome to emotional again. It bothers me, not that I think that I am ( Read more... )