My littles (tho' hardly little anymore, really) are 16 months apart. So, if it's any comfort to you, at this point, (and it wouldn't have been for me, I cried my eyes out, a lot, and boy there's more to that story, anyway) they are so sweet together and play marvelously well. Oh, the sound of their laughter...
But I know that's not what you're thinking about right now...
Yep, I've been there before, and now that I'm on the other side of that mountain, and yes, it is a mountain, all I can say is what a wild and beautiful trip it's been. And how glad I am that they can dress themselves, make their own snacks, buckle themselves in, read, bathe themselves...
Stephanie I can't tell you how much I needed to hear this. I have been crying all night, & feeling just awful for ... feeling this awful. I know I'll come around, and all will be fine.
But I am also so terribly sad. Sad for Zach that attention will be diverted away from him while he's still so little, sad that I won't be able to run around much with him this summer as he finally gets mobile, etc. etc. And nervous. Holy crap am I nervous.
For the first year of her life, I think, I was obsessed with the fear that I loved her less. It was really ridiculous, like a voice in my head that I couldn't stop. To top it off, she was such a wonderful baby that I also obsessed with the fear that I was not giving her enough attention. I also grieved for my first, thinking that somehow he was losing out. All of this is just mommy malarky. It's just because having our first child is so momentous, we think a second child somehow takes second place. So don't hate yourself for all this because it is totally and completely normal. Just try to take as many pictures of your second child as you did of your first (VERY hard to do) because later the second child is going to pick up on this. ;)
One more thing. Don't worry about Zach. You are giving him something incredible! A sibling! They will be gifts to each other for the rest of their lives.
I was there in July. Nora was born March 12, and in July I found out that somehow I was pregnant again. I'm still not totally over the shock, and I'm due in mid-April.
Everyone's telling me that once they're old enough to play together it's actually easier than just one baby. I'm comforting myself with the following: they'll have similar energy levels, they'll play together, they'll be interested in the same things at the same time, I had one recently enough that I remember what to do.
Good luck. Counting me, you're the 3rd person on my F-list who's waiting for an unexpected super close second baby.
Is the mini pill to blame for yours, too? I was supposed to call my OB to get upgraded to the good stuff once my period came back. Never did.
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My littles (tho' hardly little anymore, really) are 16 months apart. So, if it's any comfort to you, at this point, (and it wouldn't have been for me, I cried my eyes out, a lot, and boy there's more to that story, anyway) they are so sweet together and play marvelously well. Oh, the sound of their laughter...
But I know that's not what you're thinking about right now...
Yep, I've been there before, and now that I'm on the other side of that mountain, and yes, it is a mountain, all I can say is what a wild and beautiful trip it's been. And how glad I am that they can dress themselves, make their own snacks, buckle themselves in, read, bathe themselves...
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But I am also so terribly sad. Sad for Zach that attention will be diverted away from him while he's still so little, sad that I won't be able to run around much with him this summer as he finally gets mobile, etc. etc. And nervous. Holy crap am I nervous.
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One more thing. Don't worry about Zach. You are giving him something incredible! A sibling! They will be gifts to each other for the rest of their lives.
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You have just perfectly articulated everything. Thank you again. I hope I can one day return the favor, Stephanie.
Thanks again.
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Everyone's telling me that once they're old enough to play together it's actually easier than just one baby. I'm comforting myself with the following: they'll have similar energy levels, they'll play together, they'll be interested in the same things at the same time, I had one recently enough that I remember what to do.
Good luck. Counting me, you're the 3rd person on my F-list who's waiting for an unexpected super close second baby.
Is the mini pill to blame for yours, too? I was supposed to call my OB to get upgraded to the good stuff once my period came back. Never did.
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OK, love. I'll be sticking close by. Thanks for dropping me a note. I'm not on here much these days, but methinks I will be now.
Three cheers for Internet therapy.
How you doing now?
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