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Acceptance
Steve's right. I'm crippling myself with anxiety by thinking of this situation as permanent. Most likely, I will pursue full-time work again after the baby is about 1 or so. He also reminded me of my interest in attending grad school, which I can also do at that point if I'm worried about where the publishing job market is going to be in another ( Read more... ) -
My Fears - Let Me Show you them
Yesterday was my last day on the job ( Read more... ) -
Lush Funk
All of this wonderful wine keeps showing up on my doorstep. I've purposely been ordering bottles that do not mature for 3-5 years because it's going to be at least that long before I'm able to drink again. I figured this was a great way to continue building my collection without consuming it. But I'm just torturing myself. *grumble ( Read more... ) -
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Therapy is going well. We start mindful meditation next week. Last week I told her that this did wonders for my patience factor once upon a time & believe it could really help again. I just need someone to lead it ( Read more... ) -
By all definition
Fiasco:[fee-as-koh] -noun, An incident occurring at an early hour of the morning where one who is sleep deprived must clean after one's husband after he has experienced food poisoning from too many fast-food mini burgers and is demanding to be taken to the hospital while one's child is wide awake screaming from the next room.
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Suh-weet
At long last I am rid of that horrible username. When first signing onto LJ, ohhhh, gosh ... what is it? 8 years ago, I was skeptical. I didn't think it would take. I thought I'd give it a spin & go from there, so why deliberate over usernames ( Read more... ) -
I Did It
I quit my job. It is a both glorious & melancholy feeling. I look very forward to the summer when I have nothing to do but play with Zach, take care of the house, & take care of myself while Door #2 grows steadily. The publisher was shocked. I almost loathed to tell him it was due to being pregnant. There are so many other things wrong w/the way he ( Read more... ) -
What I Was Afraid of
Modern medicine stigmatizes pregnant women over 35. The Hippocratic powers that be determine that a woman this age is destined to be plagued with any number of birth abnormalities. This dictum might be one explanation for the inordinate number of cesarean births that are performed every year in this country ( Read more... ) -
Ready or not
It might as well happen this way. We would have endlessly deliberated: "Should we? Shouldn't we?" I had been holding onto a few things "just in case." A few favorite outfits I hadn't the heart to throw out. The tub he has outgrown. The jumperoo he considered beneath him, as such trivial entertainment was better saved for babies who were content ( Read more... ) -
Well, shit.
Hullo thar second pink line ...