spending some time alone yesterday was wonderful. it was a breath of fresh air that i have been longing for. i didn't feel the need to do anything. i just sat on my bed with a thousand pillows. i let them swallow me up while my headphones carried me away to a concert far better than what was just outside my apartment. it felt good to close my door ( Read more... )

wow. things keep changing. and some people keep staying the same. they don't budge... evolve you fucking bastard heads ( Read more... )

you know, sometimes life doesn't hand you the cards that you need, or want. BUT, when it comes to the day to day stuff, you can't fold... EVER. unless you want to give up... and giving up isn't an option for me, sure it crosses my mind. but by giving up, you lose the good things with the bad and even if the bad outnumbers the good, the good ( Read more... )

i still love all of you

that last entry has just been building up for a long time

-me

so this semester has ran away with my sanity. i have retreated to being cynical or overly comical. There really is no middle ground in my life right now. the pressure to succeed from my mother is choking me. if i am going to succeed it is going to be on my own time and in my own way. my grandfather died two days before my birthday. he died a ( Read more... )

this made me giggle a little....

HAPPY TURKEY DAY EVERYONE!!!

I AM THANKFUL FOR YOU!!!

Your Power Color is Green
You feel most at home in a world of ideas ( Read more... )

it has come to this. the point that i can't organize the thoughts in my head because there are too many things going on at once. too many voices to capture just one and call it "my inner voice." Life has become so routine and un-lived that i feel numb most of the time. working 35 hours a week and being a full-time student is having its effect ( Read more... )

i have come to another stopping point.

one of those times when you look around you and all you see is choices and paths.

which one is best?

there is no "best" one!

just choose and go with it!!

she said my mouth was pretty. that is the first thing that she notcied ( Read more... )

i finally feel like me again