Why do i even update Livejournal anymore???

I thought i was something else
Something i dont want to be
I dont want this to happen
Why does it have to happen to me

And i want today
Tommorow and the next
To be real to me
I guess im just a little perplexed

I wish to come closer
Closer to the day when
I will show what i really am
But he was reaching too high

And that voice in my head just
Keeps yelling
So loud it hurts
I am crying inside

Night
Time for me to escape
And i love
The little sounds they make
She hears my crying inside
She knows i lied
Lets me do it
Saw me steal it
Pretends she didnt
I wont admit
So i quit

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Everyone has problems

I look in the mirror
And what i see
Isnt quiet me

It didn't hurt that much
To see such
A stealthy escape

(chorus)
The encounter
We had
It wasn't as bad
Wasn't sad
I blead
Words pouring
What you said
Things souring

Broken like shattered glass
Pieces too tiny to pick up
And i will pass
On seeing you
Last chance
And i gave it a second glance
But now lets say goodbye
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Miss you by Natalia Lesz

I am raw inside
And strangely lonely in this space
Empty bottles, dirty place
Still here... I miss you

And I am out again
To look for you among your friends
They glance my way, as if to say:
"You're still here..." I miss you

But I will never understand
The beauty of the greater plan
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I wanna know why its always my fault
You are never responsible for your actions
I wanna touch the face of that angel
But you took her from me

That was my fault that you took her
And it was my fault that the other left you
Ha thats so funny
Dont kid yourself

A different time
Would have made the same
Result

Don't make me say it
I do know
It is my fault

I always see
I always hear
I wish this love
Was clear

Sometimes it doesn't take much
I don't always know how
It needs to happen now
Goodbye

You think you could help me see
A different side of me
I didn't realize
The entire size

Because of experience
You know i need your interference
Blinding in captivity
Needing to help get ride of this activity

The rules changed
So i had to change the way I played this