death over loneliness

please, no more bad shit. cut me a fucking break just once, please. just, no more, i'm finally done

its all very very difficult right now. going through the hardest, worst year of my life and my friends are having to baby me to put up with me. its frustrating, and infuriating, and insulting ( Read more... )

i could really use a friend

This is frustrating. for the last 10ish years of my life I've basically thought nothing of birthdays, never really thinking much of an occasion where ppl usually lavish love and attention on you. But over the last year and a half, I've been convinced that they do mean something, and its a great and fun time where the people around you that care ( Read more... )

This is something I don't usually complain about, but life is so unfair sometimes it really sucks

Im so sorry, i just wish time would pass until my familys gone so that i would have no one i needed to stay here for. I will try hard on the way, to. Not be a failure and to be someone worthwhile to be here. I can't communicate how apologetic i am for me

*sigh* really rough day at work today, lots of stuff going on with the team and tons of stuff is up in the air. It's frustrating and worrisome, but I can't focus on that.

Gotta roll with the punches, gotta keep forging on ahead. Look at the bright side, and do the best I can with what I've been given.

I had a CT today and she was there for me. She came with me to the appointment and just helped me through it. God, does it feel good to have someone there for me again. These past couple years I've tried to shoulder as much of it as I could by myself, and tried not to think about it as much as possible so I wouldn't worry about it, but I can ( Read more... )

Heh, I do want to win, it feels good