My cousin killed himself today. He was in his 60's. I think. I haven't seen him since I was 10? 12? He always sent me birthday cards and a check for $35. I always sent a thank you note and felt really guilty cashing the check. I feel even more guilty now. But not sad. Just really guilty like...I should of reached out to him. I should of made ( Read more... )

Wish I was worth more than alcohol.
After four and a half years I should know I'm not and never will be.
But we just signed a year lease
and I feel like my dating Kharma is already fucked
and I fit the bad guy roll so well
and I'm lazy
and busy
and poor
so......

Here's to masturbation and fake headaches

Secret

I love when everything falls apart.
It's the only time I'm really happy and free.
There's nothing left to complicate and nothing left demanding me.

So moving to a new town the following happened ( Read more... )

SOOOOO after talking to a few of my old crew mates from the ship I think I caught the travel bug...again. There really should be a vaccination for this ( Read more... )

Its easy to take what you have for granted or to desire for a different life ( Read more... )

Over the last several months I've been trying to work on letting my gaurd down more frequently and letting myself be happy outwardly. Letting love in and trying really hard to put it out. I feel like I've made a lot of progress and its really improved my life and relationships. I feel like I actually get excited for others and myself now ( Read more... )

If you examine your life now and compare it to where you imagined yourself now a few years back does it line up? I'm not even close. But I think I'm more content with where I ended up than I thought I ever could be ( Read more... )

Dear Zune,

Fuck you I want to punch you in the face.

-Me

Christmas break almost here!

I'm really excited for: friends coming home, traveling away from home, no work and no homework, hot springs, family, and a plethora of cocoa and alcohol.

I love school, work is work, my friends are top notch and my roommate is pretty sexy.
Especially when he cooks naked.