and if only ( Read more... )

i hate posting in two livejournals and it's hard to understand why i do but i have good reasons ( Read more... )

I can't hold on to you because you'll run away. I keep laughing. This morning I told my family I wasn't going to school, and lay on the couch trying to sleep until they left the house and I of course followed them. I got to school in a terrible mood but of course by first period i was completely happy and worry-free. School does that for me. So ( Read more... )

I woke up at 6am because the light came out and i wasn't tired any more. I was in the middle between the two of them, my legs streching halfway down the bed. I had a bad dream during the night but snuck into their room in the middle of the night and one of them lifted me over their body so i would be safe from my dream. As soon as they were up, the ( Read more... )

I can't remember my day much. School was pretty normal, except for the whole episode with Molly's meeting, and i had an ortho appointment in Sandpoint, but in the end it came out okay. I went to crew and ended up running with the experienced girls to Gasworks, which wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, but i'll definitly be feeling it tomorrow. ( Read more... )

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"send me your storm
all i want is to be your harbor."

Mom got back from Portland around 10 tonight and i was still out but Laine and Hilary wanted to go over there. Kessiah's dad dropped me off and i opened the door to see Dad vacuuming. It doesn't seem FAIR, does it? Mom gets the fresh start - the new house, choosing what she wants in it, and Dad's left with the clutter in the basement and years of ( Read more... )

I was standing on the side of the courtyard today with Kris and Todd, their money in their hands, and looked around the courtyard. There were kids wearing colorful clothes laughing and dancing around in the cold. And i stood there laughing with the boys and at the same time making myself distant and questioning them and watching how different it ( Read more... )

I went to Sarah today. It was the weirdest day for me. I kept laughing with the boys and dancing around school as if I were the happiest girl in the whole wide world and then when I was alone for a second I imagined that I would walk down to the dock. I stood in the courtyard at lunch and told somebody that I needed to talk to somebody ( Read more... )