I CAN"T STUDY. i can't think. i can't keep my mind on what i am supposed to be studying. i keep going back to thinking about j & m. i emailed m. tonight, at 11, and told him if he wanted he could call me before 2. he hasn't called. that's a good/bad thing. at least he is out partying somehwere, adn he's not some big loser, but i needed to talk ( Read more... )

Awake, through the years it takes to see you
'Till I almost lose my mind
'Cause I'll never be alright
And I'm sorry you had to see this
But I'm such a mess
And i never could forget

I'm scared I'll miss the way we used to talk
And if its all for ever lost don't wanna know
I'm scared that you're the one that got awayAnd I want you here with me ( Read more... )

on friday i went over to their house, and we were drinking, and i told them all drinking games tomorrow (sat) at theiur house... i didn't end up going, i needed to study for my two midterms that i have on mon and tuesday. but he typed this on msn this morning ( Read more... )

i am still confused of what i think of him...either he is actually nice guy..or an asshole.i mean, he gets my email addy from my brother. then tells us to come over to his house. and so we did a couple of times, then on the weekend he starts holding my hand...on the firday..and then on the saturday he starts making out with me...andi was not the ( Read more... )

Jack and Dianne painted a picture of my life in my dreams ( Read more... )

im starting to forget what it was like to go out with him... but i don't want that to happen. i still want to remeber the good things about it all. i still want to remember how much fun we had...

i don't wnat ot forget him like i did all the others...

he said i was the best girlfried he had ever had... i bet he says that to all fo the girls. he said he hated me for being one year older and going to saskatoon. he told me that i was so much fun to party with. and i was the best becasue i didn't give a shit. how could i tell him that i actually did care ( Read more... )

last night we went booze crusing. me kim braden preston the sproats (brady colby carter) and frasier. it was fun ( Read more... )

i just got back from my grandma's house. me and two other cosins and my aunt helped her paint her shed (s) - ther was two of them ( Read more... )

i want to konw why they broke up. why he broke up with her

maybe it will put my mind at ease...or maybe it will only make me worse....