We’ll be married 33 years this August.

Kinda makes me bummed when I see the direction things are heading.

Roommates.

It’s been like this for a fat minute. (Years.) It’s rare that he’s interested in sex.  I thought it was the weight…no…I think it’s not my weight now…it’s his.  He has ED and refuses to get help for it.  I remember feeling so ( Read more... )

I tried a paper journal, but the fact remains that I like the convenience  of typing as I think.  It’s just faster and I don’t feel so slowed down.  Perhaps slowing down is the point, but not when I just need a place to dump my thoughts.  I was going to open up another journal, as I thought I had lost access to this one again.  Alas!  I am ( Read more... )

Sarah is 12.....12!!!

Time passes far too quickly....the lament of many mothers.  Even with aiming to be present and appreciating the now, cutting out excess and focusing on what I have....still....time passes so fast, and my little girl is in her last of the younger years.  She's a treasure.

So, that is what Sarah wanted us to yell into the night sky as we banged our pots n pans and exclaimed a hearty "Fuck You 2020!"  Glad to put that year to bed.

Makin it to midnight....just the three of us.  Sarah is up in her room drawing and watching anime.  J and I watching Star Trek Discovery...well...I'm half watching, half catching up on some of you here!  ...and then I found this (thanks April) and thought I'd fill it out cause I'm spinny and need something to do in my head.

2. Last time you cried?
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Sarah is just shy of a week from turning 12.  She has been a consistent joy in my life even when she's been going through rough patches. It hasn't been the most ideal of living situations she has grown up in, but through it all, she's been loved and supported.

I'm thinking back, trying to recall other things that have happened...sometimes I have ( Read more... )

I thought I lost this forever!  So happy to retrieve my account.  Man...talk about life, fast-forward.  I'll update soon...in the meantime, any of you still here or is LJ a ghost town?

It's a lovely autumn day in Oregon...yet, when I am in this mood, I hole up and do things inside....when I know getting outside would solve some of the problems ( Read more... )

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After everyone left and the Christmas Eve whirlwind settled...the kids opened their Christmas jammies and went to bed...and after the last packages were wrapped, I ignored the kitchen implosion and went. to. bed ( Read more... )