My silence will not protect me: A lesson in progress.

[witchbabyblue]

"He couldn't stand me being sick. Nobody can. They only want to hear that you're healing, you're in recovery, taking it one day at a time. If you're locked into sick, you should stop wasting their time and just get dead."

((Laurie Halse Anderson, Wintergirls))

*It's eerie just how firmly, and precisely, the above words have stayed with me

Comments

[kenkitty]

Hello! *waves and offers you those infinite hugs*

I'm really glad you wrote this entry.

[witchbabyblue]

Were I there, I would try to let myself just fall into those infinite hugs, burrow and linger. Because that sounds like something that would really help.

Just as it helped, made my heart twinge sweetly, that you thanked me for writing this.
Thank you for thanking me.

[fugitivemotel]

Hello. We don't know each other very well, and I'm not sure if you even read my journal. I just wanted to say that I always look forward to your entries; and you have an amazing talent with words. I am always moved and provoked by your posts; even if you have little to say.

Also, last year I moved from London, England to San Diego, California, and I am now here as an MFT (Marriage and Family Therapist). I see several clients every week, some of whom are suicidal, or at least contemplating death. If you ever want to discuss any of this - openly, without censorship or judgment - with me, I would be honoured to do so. You can email me any time at sandiegopibb@gmail.com , if you'd like.

In the meantime, I wish you well, and please keep writing.

[witchbabyblue]

Dear, sweet man,

The kindness of this note physically grips me, in that it feels almost bodily. Your kindness comes through clearly- so real, almost effortless.

Which means so much. I don't think a thank you could adequately contain what reading this made me- allowed me to- feel.

Ohh, therapists... I work with an absolutely incredible woman; one of two that I've really respected, and the only one that I've truly trusted. (She's just... god, One of Those People. So rare. My mother says that even hearing her voice on the answering machine is soothing

[fuckingalfresco]

Thanks for writing this.

Are you taking visitors yet?

[thisfrozenlake_]

i find myself doing that too - i hardly ever write in my journal when i'm depressed, unless i can put a positive spin on it.

but i think you are a beautiful writer and a beautiful person, even though we've never met. thanks for being brave enough to write this entry. i hope you write more.

much love,
eli

[kiik]

stay in this world robin.
it is your human right to exist.
i know it's way more complex than that....but i do stand by that principle.