why i seem to mean so much to people

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Some days you realize you really aren't that important.

( It this just me, or do I have a point? )

Trust? Broken nearly beyond repair.

Friendship? Severely strained.

Funny how some people become the very thing they warn others against.

I'm refusing to invest myself emotionally *any* further. For this to get better, it's time for the other party to step up. If they don't, then they don't.

oh to fashion myself a necklace, so pretty and pristine to show to the world.

A crowd will gather to see me model it, a man will come to guide me to sleep.

oh to make myself so pretty with jewelry like drops of rubies, roses blossoming in spring with their unmistakable scent, almost sickly sweet

To wear as bracelets to keep out of harms way.

I'm better, for now. By the time the responses started coming in, I was in bed. I feel better, emotionally, but that could be because I cried myself out last night.

In any event, yeah. Here, better, etc. etc. Gonna go get some breakfast here soon.

point blank.

I am suicidal right now.

i feel abandoned, and worthless. i feel unlovable, and like i don't matter. I want to die, because there is no way this can possibly get better. i just want the hurt to end, and if i live it will never end.

so yes. there you have it, plain as day.

さようなら

I just can't anymore.