Right now I love punishing myself and not eating. I get great pleasure of refraining and almost fasting. Of course I'm eating SOMETHING, but not nearly enough to keep up with my energy need. So I have to loose weight all the time, I hope. I'm really bad in exercising, but I'm lucky to have a little bit of muscles anyway. But if I have to loose ( Read more... )

I've become overweight first time in my life! After the Woman left and I stopped cooking I've started buying pizza, chips, candy and other bachelor treats every single day. I have slowly grown out of my clothes without even noticing anything special. Well, the mirror told me that I wasn't as skinny as I used to be, but that was turn for the better ( Read more... )

I'm apparently going to FME in Helsinki (Kaapelitehdas) next month. I'm not so much into finnish metal, but I was asked to come by a lovely woman I thought I was never going to see again. She has a free ticket, but I off course have to pay.

As it happens I'm back to so called working life. Back to teaching others to do things that I can't do anymore, trying to be what I once was. Oh so glorious, oh so fake ( Read more... )

Last night a pal of mine phoned me. He was drunk as a fool and it was late. I wasn't very happy to hear from him in the middle of the night, but for some mysterious reason we went on talking for over an hour ( Read more... )

I was right not to trust. That person is clearly not sincere, clearly doesn't care for my feelings at all. I'm guilty of longing, nothing more. Countless are the times I meet these bloodsuckers, who lure me to give them a chance. Is truth too much to ask? I will not hate, I'll ignore ( Read more... )

Is that hope
if you have
nothing to loose
and you embrace it
with open arms?

to all on my friends list and to whoever happens to read this entry.

Kulkekaa valoa kohti.

Ohmygodohmygodohmygod ( Read more... )

I've been hiding for days, surrounded by mist and shadows... But tomorrow, tomorrow I'll rise and show the word what the power of the Witch is all about. Beware ( Read more... )